Soo..I've been thinking about it tonight..and my mare is like my life.
I look at my mare like I would my child if I had one. I'd do anything for my mare. I've gone without food on slow work weeks so that she'd have her grain.
I honestly feel as though no one else in the world would be better for her than myself.
I bought her as a resale project, that I definitely didn't plan on keeping, at all. I still planned on selling her, especially when she started acting up a bit more with the weight she put on after she was starved (which I believe was on purpose, and I rescued her, no matter what anyone says). But when she got fence injuries, I knew I wasn't going to be able to sell her..but I still wanted to try, because that's why I bought her. And her last injury gave me that last bit of..something that showed me just how much I cared about her. I spent my whole paycheck on meds for her and gas to get to the barn everyday, no matter the weather or my mood.
I know some would consider my corrections abuse..But I fixed her kicking problem..I may have took the whip to her at the beginning, but I had someone out that thought it would be okay to use a wire brush to brush her, and sure enough, she didn't kick. I stopped that as soon as I saw, but she definitely showed that she would tolerate just about anything and not kick at a human. Ever.
She follows me around without a lead, which shows her respect of me being herd leader and that she trusts me. She never disrespects or truely disrespects my space if she's spooked, she just moves a bit closer to me, as of to let me know she's scared and to take care of whatever it is.
Soo..I know this probably only makes sense to me, seeing as I'm not exactly sober, but I had to explain to someone that would understand. Earlier today my mum asked if I regretted buying her since I didn't have any money left last paycheck..and while I tried to explain, she went on and on about how I shouldnt have gotten her and that I come first before an animal..And all I could reply with was that she'd never understand what I feel towards my horse, and we left it at that. I rereally just wanted to tell someone(s) that would understand. I pay my bills, but I may not always have food or cigarettes for myself..And that's okay, because my child (horse) comes before my wants.
Anywho..cookies to anyone that reads my non-sober ramble. The only thing I wish was different about her is that I'd have been able to grow her from a weanling instead of getting her as an almost 7yr old.
I guess what actually promted this was me going through my pictures and seeing this one, in which I really think she looks like a baby and not a 7yr old mare:
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