Yes, she is very beautiful, but to me that is just icing on the top, ya know? I love her thick mane, and once her tail grows out, thatíll be lovely too.
I will admit that some of my hesitance does stem from the whole thing with Rogue. I donít want to get burned like that again, and I donít want to bond with something I will just have to bring back. So, perhaps thatís where my Ďeh, sheís okayí attitude is coming from.
I am sure her alertness is just her settling in, and learning the new sounds of the barn. I almost feel like that and my aloofness toward the situation are contributing to my lack of bonding with her. Right now I donít feel like weíve bonded much. Sure, she comes to me when she sees me, but Iíve also heard others say that she has come to them too, so, sheís just a friendly mare. lol
Sheíll mainly be used for trails, so perhaps her alertness will be problem on the trail, also if she is herd dominant, I donít know how well that would work. Perhaps down the road Iíd use her for Western Pleasure, but that isnít for a couple years yet.
I do have the option of putting her through some training. There is a trainer at our barn, and because sheís at our barn, Iíd be charged less because I am already paying board. Also, Maria, the barn manager/friend said that she would help me with her, and she already has, some.
Working with Rogue has given me more confidence, Iíll say. She wasnít the most difficult horse in the world, but the most difficult that I have ever been around. I am nervous with this mare, Iím nervous when she comes into the barn and starts to spazz out. I know that, that energy can contribute to her energy, which feeds mine, so it's like we're feeding each other's energy.. As far as confidence in the saddle, itís too early to say. I rode her for a bit when she arrived, and I did good. Yes, I am a timid rider, and for me to be up on her the first day she was at the barn says a lot for me, that I have come a ways. I do feel like I can get up on her and ride her and not be tense about it. I feel like I CAN be relaxed on her and I CAN put her through her paces once she gets settled in.
She was really smooth at a walk, like butter. But once she started to do a faster walk she started to get a little bumpy. When Maria cued her to trot, it was horribly bumpy. Also, she does have more whoa than go. You do have to cue her up a few times before she gets the idea.
This mare will be finding a forever home with me, I will not sell her, she is an investment; something I can build my confidence and self esteem on; she is an outlet for me. Sheíll be with me forever. I agree that she does have potential, I think she has a LOT of potential. I think the only thing that would hold her back would be my inexperience, and well thatíll only come in time.
He is asking 1000 for her, that is what he bought her for, and that is what he wants to get out of her. As of right now, I donít see the problem with paying that, sheís sound, sheís broke. I told him what I wanted, and he showed me this mare, and two other horses. My barn does a lot of dealing with this person, and I trust him, and my barn. So, Iíd like to say that I donít think they would ever steer me wrong, but I have been wrong in the past. I feel that if Maria thinks sheís a good fit for me, then she would be, as she knows how I ride, and how I do spazz out from time to time. Also, when she gets some time on her, and some training, she can be used as a lesson horse and an additional trail horse, so it wouldnít be just me putting hours on her. I would be willing to let others ride her, as I see that as Ďseasoningí.
I have spent the last few days just trying to develop a bond with her, but as I stated above, I think that the past situation with Rogue has jaded me a bit. My goal is to ride her without any help, be it by myself, or have someone out there, but not help me at all. That will be my deciding factor. Right now I feel like once I get her desensitized to the mounting block, I could get on her and walk her out for a bit, but thatís the extent of it.
She will have to go to a trainer for a bit, and I do plan on taking her through a natural horsemanship clinic as soon as one starts up at the barn.
I just really feel torn here.