You are all right. There were points that I wasn't thinking about and views that I might have missed. I spent half of Christmas night thinking about what to do. I've also spoken with my trainer who has helped me bring the Arab this far. She seems to think while the Arab will never be a jumping pro, she can jump and can be taken to shows, which is essentially a good start for me. Maybe in 5 years I can have a pro jumper, but this not only works best for me now, but gets me experience. I know that little mare very well and she seems to listen best to me as opposed to any of the other people who ride her. She isn't 16 hh, she isn't chestnut, she isn't male, she isn't a great jumper, and she isn't a thoroughbred. But like you all said, maybe she doens't have to be. I know her heart and she feels mine. I've already decided I'm going to by her. Another plus is that TBs tend to have horrible feet. This little girl has amazing feet and is also barefoot. Yay for trims only! I can't thank you enough for making me see that my dream may very well be right in front of my face. Why look for something else when something perfect is already with you. One of you said "a bird in hand is worth two in a bush" and you are completely right. So I'm buying my dream. She may not be the dream I had in my head for years, but in the words of Tangled: "You're my new dream".
Now I just gotta think up a new name for her. Her current name is horrible: Najah (pronounced Na-sh-a, not Na-Ha, as the lady at the show kept saying, haha). I once had a dream I had a black arab named Vesper, so I'm thinking that, possibly Whisper. Hopefully everyone at the barn will take to a new name, as we are all pretty much used to Najah. I am just so excited to be owning this girl.
~He knows when you're happy
~He knows when you're comfortable
~And he always knows when you have carrots.