As some may know about my one eyed pony and how I got her in less then disierable (sp?) condition. I've made a pact with myself that I will keep her til her last days. I think I owe her that.
I also have a 6 year old App gelding who I got from a broker who got him from Camelot. He was advertised as 'beginner safe' and stupid me getting back into having my own horse bought him even though I knew very possibly that he wasn't 'the one' and definitely needed more training then I could provide.
I love him to death, really I do. But currently he's sat in my field for a year now just hanging out. I also got him in less then good condition. I don't ride him because he's terrified of everything and it isn't small spooks. It's like cutting horse spooks where he jumps to the side and it kinda looks like he's working cows.
Recently I've been having the thought of finding him a new home but have guilty feelings about it. That horse could be something amazing in hands that could train a horse. I for one, am in no position to train a green bean. I've been riding since I was 3 on and off and I'm 18 now. I still have confidence issues. I know I can work with him and my trainer and make him out to be something amazing but between time, money, and my own anxiety issues I don't think I'm in any position to train a horse right now.
I feel seriously bad to the point where I make myself cry over it. If I was rich hell yeah I'd send him off to training or try to make it work but I don't even feel like I have a solid 'heart horse' connection with him.
I don't know what to do. I don't want to get rid of him but he needs someone who can work with him and be a good match with him. I'm upset just trying to post this right now. :/
Sorry guys..just needed to talk and let that out. If anyone wants to chime in..feel free. Posted via Mobile Device