Every time I saddle my horses, I feel guilty. Why? I don't know. But I feel like its not my place to make them carry me around. After 24 years of riding, all of a sudden I feel like I shouldnt be doing it to them.
Every time I leave of a night time, I worry that I havent given them enough hay. Between the two of the horses that I have with me at the moment, I feed them about 2 1/2 bales of hay a day plus 3 hard feeds yet I can't stop this nagging fear that its not enough.
I put their rugs on and think about how they never needed this kind of thing in the wild so why am I dong it for them now. Putting straps between their legs etc etc etc
Im driving myself nuts and I need someone to ground me again. I know that my horses have known nothing but domestication thier whole lives but all of a sudden I have this guilt going on and I don't know where it came from. Its really getting me down and I sont know how to stop it.
Any words of wisdom would be greatly appreciated :)