Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: Hatton Vale, QLD, Australia
why do i feel this way all of a sudden?
ok. ive been trying to ignore this of late but its really getting to me so i need some help.
every time i saddle my horses, i feel guilty. why? i dont know. but i feel like its not my place to make them carry me around. after 24 years of riding, all of a sudden i feel like i shouldnt be doing it to them.
every time i leave of a night time, i worry that i havent given them enough hay. between the two of the horses that i have with me at the moment, i feed them about 2 1/2 bales of hay a day plus 3 hard feeds yet i cant stop this nagging fear that its not enough.
i put their rugs on and think about how they never needed this kind of thing in the wild so why am i dong it for them now. putting straps between their legs etc etc etc
im driving myself nuts and i need someone to ground me again. i know that my horses have known nothing but domestication thier whole lives but all of a sudden i have this guilt going on and i dont know where it came from. its really getting me down and i sont know how to stop it.
any words of wisdom would be greatly appreciated :)
"I whisper but my horse doesnt listen...So I yell!!...He still doesnt listen"