I'm trying really hard not to cry about this, but I'm not doing a very good job. I don't know why I'm so unhappy, either, because I already knew Tango was lame and would probably be off for most of the fall, if not the winter. But today my dad got Tiffany (the trainer we bought Tango from, and probably the most experienced and accomplished horseperson we know) to come over, and she found that Tango had torn a muscle in her shoulder. Today you can barely touch one hot spot on her shoulder, and I'm dead serious when I say this is the first time this has shown up.
So I guess no riding at all for a long time, but that's not even the worst. The worst is that I don't know if she'll ever get better. The slightest movement could tear it again and it could flare up as it begins to heal. Yeah, you can keep her in a box stall for months and months, but that just means she'll get bored and go pretty much insane and be more likely to frisk and run when she finally does get out, and therefore hurt herself again. I mean, I'm prepared to wait as long as I need to to get riding again...I just want to be sure that she will eventually heal, and right now I don't know.
And now dad has been nagging me constantly over the past few months to "break Lily! Get her into work". Ok, I really do want to ride, but #1) Lily is two years old. #2) I only have about a year and a half of riding experience-I'm NOT going to be able to break a horse, and I wouldn't have the first clue of where to start. #3) She's not even my horse (she's my sister's). And #4, however whiny this sounds) I don't want a 2-year-old. I'm still practically a beginner as it is, and I'm still gaining my confidence. I don't want a green horse.
I know there's so many more terrible things that could happen to me, but I still feel like absolute sh*t, and am really upset. I know that I was most likely the one who caused her lameness somehow. How many of you have had horses with torn muscles (in the shoulder, particularly) that got better, and how long did it take them to get better? I just want/need to know if there is any hope at all.
Thanks for listening to me cry and whine. It feels good to get it off my chest. Cookies and pizza to you.