I'm fully against kicking... but am a bit of a hypocrite - I do smack if I'm pushed to the extremes. I try to make it more of a sound, than use force (cos once I misjudged the strength and ended up hurting myself more lol)... I DO feel guilty for it... my wee mare is an alpha... and a horrible toad when in a mood. I could be ten foot tall and she'd STILL attempt to hurt... she's vindictive, and used to do things like pinch the sensitive skin on your upper arm between her teeth. And she even double barrelled me once.
Is this because I'm inexperienced? No. She hasn't done these things in years, but she used to be HORRIBLE when in heat (both those times exampled were when she was in heat and she'd just turn on me). And she's the type of horse that just decides to squirt and fall in love and get all horny whenever it suits her.
I ended up persisting with her... not giving her an excuse, not showing her fear... because if you show her even a glimpse of nerves, she'd think it's Christmas... yes I'm making her out to sound horrible... but when she used to go in heat, all she wanted was to be left alone, and went stupid ways about getting it.
Three years on, she's completely different... okay she still has her movements... but she hasn't bitten me in years... and I can handle her with ease when in heat now. I don't agree with kicking. I used to go to a riding school where kicking and beating and everything was an acceptable part of horse care... needless to say I left.
I have a continuous knee injury so I end up on sticks now and then... but I can lead her no problem on them... I suggest you grab yourself a lunging whip... NOW, don't EVER hit a horse with it... I'm sure you know this though... but use it as an extension of your arm. Place it in front of Chance, if she rushes forward. Press it against her shoulder to push her away if she invades your personal space. Having an extension really helps me. Bailey is very respectful of the whip. I've not once hit her with it (people who do are really cruel in my mind) but she knows what that means.
There are other ways than force, and I've learnt that!
I hope you try to stick with her for a little bit longer, but if you're feeling unconfident, and close to being scared, I suggest you try looking for a horse that's much quieter for you.
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