The trainer at my barn who's worked with horses for 30 yrs [training] wont even get on Chance. Which is deffinately a big red light there. We had a LONG talk today and she thinks its something in Chances "upstairs" that's out of her own control, so when she explodes she's even a danger to herself basically.
She's watched me work with Chance and the other horses and she said its nothing to do with me nor my riding. Chance is just plain not stable. She's seen her episodes as well. She said basically.. if Chance was her horse she would have been put down a long time ago because she's a danger to herself and I guess who ever gets on her. Which I don't agree with but... maybe its because I'm attached to her. I've had A LOT of people tell me this and I just denied it.
My BO even agreed. She said Chance was just over my head, and even hers. Which I can agree with. I have confidence with every other horse BUT Chance. I can't get on her and say Im ready to take on w.e you give me. Because the second I feel her tense I tense..I never did this till at least the 3rd time she threw me. I don't do this with ANY other horse. Even the worst of buckers I've ridden. Bolters are a different story. I only like galloping when its on purpose
The woman at my barn I talked to said that basically its easy to fix a horse that's trying to get you off on purpose, its the horses that arent. Which is what Chance's problem is. She's not trying to hurt me or get me off. She just explodes and looses all self control and she forgets about the person on her back and her surroundings. Then once she feels me up there, its startles her and backs her freak out even more. Idk if you understand what I mean here. Like as she's freaking out she's pretty much forgotten that I was up there and then she feels me trying to stay on and it startles her and she thinks its something trying to eat her and explodes more. Which when she starts to twist and buck harder. Some of you may and or may nor agree with this. But this is said from people who have seen Chances worsts and bests in person.
The mare I work with is b****y, and tries to unbalence me and get me off, and its pretty easy to correct her and get her to comply with what I want. Chance.. when she bolted yesterday, I had to almost LITERALLY make her fall to the ground in order to stop her feet, then she was fine. A normal one rein stop wasn't enough she kept trying to go, so I let her loose again for a second then forced her to spin around tightly and she twisted herself and finally had to think about her feet cause she was starting to fall. Its scary and I can't keep getting on her and work with that. People who watch me ride her tell me EVERY time, im extremely brave to put a foot in that stirrup. Which im not brave.. im just plain stupid and determined... but i've come to terms with the truth.
I broke her basically, taught her w/t/c had a lot of GREAT firsts with her, but I've put a bunch of time and money in her and she's not giving me anything back. Its a one way street, and like the woman said, theres pot holes on the other side. Its not safe. I've learned A LOT from her.
But I know someone who may take her for free and see what they want to do with her and if I ever want to buy her back I can. I have a few options for her so im not to worried.
Please don't start attacking me please. I'm willing to listen and try not to get defensive.