I think it takes a much bigger person to admit they need help than it takes to be one that thinks they can do everything.
I vote send to a professional trainer. Find your self a trainer that knows you want to learn and the trainer can train the horse while he teaches you what he is doing.
You most certainly do not have to all of your horses training to have a bond with them. Life is not that much of a fairytale.
I know a lot about care and just a little about ridding, nearly nothing about training.
You posted that line. Read it and think about your horse. Do what is best for your horse!