I jumped for the first time in my lesson today. Well not my first. The first time, a couple years ago, my horse ran away with me before she jumped. Scary. So at this new barn I jumped just fine except for one thing. When I was in 2-point I was holding onto the mane to keep my balance. But I was worried that my horse would run away with me so I shortened up the reins which I know is a big no-no. How can I be confident enough to trust my horse so I don't jab him in the mouth? I feel terrible about it now but fear took over when I was riding. I don't want that to happen next time.
I also have a problem with my lower leg going forward when riding. It just feels more natural to have it forward. My instructor said I needed to bring it back a bit. When I did it felt awkward and I had to put a lot of physical and mental effort into it. I'm hoping with practice it'll become more natural.