I just want to be done with duchess and move on. I am almost reduced to tears I mean as I am writing this im holding back the tears. She will not pick up her left lead and it is just a fight with no one winning. Its like im stuck in a hole and its just getting deeper and deeper. And no there is nothing physically wrong with her.
I have been battleing this for almost 2 years, this horse is 7 years old. My friend is bringing her round pen down to my place tomarow but at this point im not even sure if that will work. I know this sounds like a silly reason to give up, but you would have to be in my shoes to understand, its like I have nothing left to give, I have tried my all and im running out of try. Ilove
this mare and it kills me knowing that I just can't make it work (yep now im crying). I don't want to sell her at all, but I mean what do I do, I can only try for so long. I never should of got her in the first place, it was stupid of me to, I wasnt ready for a green horse and I new it, but it was love at first sight with her. She deserves someone so much better than me, I hate knowing I am holding her back because of my lack of knowledge, I just hate myself, I don't want to ruin her, and I think its just time that I let her go. O my I am balling my eyes out now.