I Need Confidence
I've worked through a lot of issues with my horse...most of which were actually my fault and my fault alone. Actually, I'd say ALL our issues were my fault. I've progressed a lot in the last couple years, and we're finally at a good point.
On the ground, I'm calm, confident, in control, and my mare would follow me to the ends of the earth if I asked her. We have trust, respect, and an overall good relationship on the ground.
However, when I get on her...I seem to lose confidence. There are days when she's totally laid back and chill, and those days are great, but she's young and full of pep and spunk (not to mention she feels good and energetic in cold weather) and when she starts getting fast and outward-focused, I seem to shrivel up and become...for lack of a better word, the underdog.
I know that's the WRONG thing to do, and that I should always remain cool, calm and confident, but it's hard for me to do. I'm not a naturally dominant/aggressive person, and my first instinct is to stay quiet and unnoticed to get out of trouble...obviously, this doesn't work with horses.
What can I do to become more confident? I know it's a pretty broad question, but I hope there will be some answers out there.