I've never really put thought into this expression until recently. The more research and reading I do, the more scared ****-less I am to get on my own horse. Not because I am afraid of him, but rather I'm afraid of ruining him. This may seem a tad melodramatic, and I guess that I will ride anyway. But I needed to talk about this.
When my first and current horse entered my life.. I was equipped with all the intelligence of my Horse & Pony Encyclopedia and few rare, but precious rides. However I have been blessed with a ravenous appetite for knowledge and I have always wanted to do the best possible for my horse. So.. to the internet I go! Now don't assume that I take every article, pdf file, or YouTube video to heart. I tend to question everything and anything unless I've seen what it does, how it works, or have been able to try it myself. Over the last two years I feel I have greatly expanded my knowledge of the Equine. Both of the horse itself and how to properly work with a horse both on the ground and in the saddle.
I can say that I have vastly improved in my seat. I no longer bounce (well for the most part ;) I can confidently say that I can indeed sit a trot! I'm slowly learning to post correctly too. Cantering is a whole different story though. I won't be attempting to do that "correctly" for a long time!
Anyway I'm rambling! The point I'm trying to make is that although knowledge is a great thing, it can also make you miserable. I say this because although I see and understand the higher and more advanced concepts of riding, I have no way to apply them to well.. me. I feel stuck. I'm by myself. I have no instructor. I won't settle for just any "Trainer" either because I've found that half the time I know more than they do! (small town Kansas here.. so yeah.) Or I completely disagree with how they want to go about teaching something.
I don't know if I'm looking for answers here or what. I feel like it would be impossible to teach myself. What if I'm doing something wrong and don't catch it? Then I end up with a horse who has a behavior or an ill response that I have accidentally created. The main article that caused this tirade/rant was this ::: Sustainable Dressage - Collection & Its Evasions - True Collection - What It Is and How to Achieve It :::
I so badly want to be able to achieve that, but don't know how.. So now I am stuck with this knowledge but am unable to apply it! I look forward to someday have an excellent instructor that will teach me these things!
Thank you very much for reading this entire thing! What is your opinion? Is ignorance really bliss? I will say though that knowledge has done so much for my horse and I and I don't count it as an evil thing. I guess what I hate is having knowledge but no way to use it.