I think it may have something to do with hanging out with other horse people who have real expectations of their horses, whereas I never really did. I just wanted something that stopped, turned, went faster or slower and was happy and healthy. Now since I got my new girl, I've taken her in the bush twice already even though I could see she is nervous there, tied her unsafely (not breakaway) and had the consequences for it, left her alone too early so she broke out of the paddock looking for her buddy, and who knows what all else. With every other horse I've taken off the track, I never expected that much of them in the first months of being here.
I talk a big storm, but then when I'm out there, it seems like everything about time and patience in training was never a part of me at all. It's not that I loose patience, just that I seem to think "well, she stood tied calmly every other time in the last month, so today she'll stand calmly again" duh... how stupid with a green 5 yr old can I be? So, my question is -- how do I get my head screwed on straight again before someone gets hurt?