When I made last weeks post "urgent help needed on newly broken" I really thought that when I woke up in the morning I would be ready to take it on. Get there tack up and just get on with it pushing through the nerves which usualy turn to anger once the pony misbehaved. However waking up and hardly being able to walk did nothing for my confidence and when my sis offered to ride I jumped on it!! Great so I tacked up for her and watched her ride and he was super nervous (which people have also helped and reassured with) he had issues when she went to dismount which I suppose is expected after I flew off him into the boards the last time I rode!! Obviously I was even less keen to jump on the next day and felt like we where really going backwards so I just lunged him and dealt with some new issues of REFUSING to enter the stable .
Last night and I was loads less stiff and ready to ride so tacked up -much better, in and out of stable hesitantly and now keeps stopping while leading, into areana and walked around in hand for a couple minutes then mounted and dismounted with out any issues but legs began to shake and as my sister had come along incase I didnt ride I let her ride. Anyway he rode like before all this happened and he has regained confidence im glad to report!! He now keeps stopping and wont go forward doubting respect??
This morning I was annoyed with myself and determined to get a grip I went and caught him- fine, leading he stopped so I hit him with end of lead rope and he walked much better, darted into the stable and tacked up much better than last couple of days. Rid ok I just stayed in walk keeping my nerves in check but he kept stopping and was hard to move forward?! He does understand the ques or at least I thought he did. Also when I start to kick harder I can feel his back coming up, carried a whip today and this helped for the first 5 mins.
My plan is to ride out with company tommorow as I feel he's getting bored and therfore going to act up. I just wanna keep him moving forward for another 5 days then hopefully the girl who broke him will be home and ill get her to work on him more for both our sakes.
I wish I could get over these nerves because I know I have the ability but for some reason I just can't push through them and I keep worrying that im teaching bad things rather than good. As soon as im through one issue another one rises. After getting him moving forward around the arena today I took him up the lane and back down to the stables when I dissmounted and remounted, walk forward dissmount waving legs etc remounted and dissmounted. (dissmounting was a little scary for him after the fall) Dead chuffed with progress I untacked and give him food and was on the phone and standing next to his back stroking him and for the first time in his life he threatened to KICK me!!! IM SHOCKED never knew this was in his nature. Im not nervous on the ground and I shouted at him and lifted my hands moving him away from food to back of stable. Then rubbed him all over before moving away and letting him carry on with food.
You all keep telling me to keep at it but I feel like as fast as im running im slipping further down hill!
Sorry about the LONG post but really im just after knowing whether im doing harm by keeping trying and if all these issues (as small as they are) are down to me or if this is expected with such a green pony. When he was being broken he was soo perfect none of this at all!!But that was only 5 rides and then I took over and he was "ok" for 4 rides until I spooked him. Im trying to be direct and firm and consistent when im with him but everyday a new "thing" . Do I stop and wait for help?!
Any feed back welcomed no matter how blunt!