I have been taking lessons at my english barn for about a year now. Back in november we were jumpng approx.2ft but then I was off balance on the last ump and fell of and since that we never seem to jump anymore. Since then all we really do is trot around the ring and do serpentines and trot over poles. It is very frustrating. Then 2 weeks ago the horse I ride which I really bond with got spooked and bucked me off and I hurt my back a little. And last week they decided I didnt use my leg enough which is so NOT true because the past few months I have only been using my leg to go,stop,turn and everything.
So they give me this new young horse to ride and they know its head strong and doesnt listen well. They also know it likes to start cantering to the other arena nomatter how hard im trying to strop it with my leg. The pony started cantering to the other arena and I was using my voice and leg till we were 2ft away from the rail which the pony could easily jump. I started pulling the reins becuase I didnt want to jump over the rails. I was shouting woah and I never shout because im very shy and my instructor started yelling at me and blaming it all on me as if I wasnt even trying to use me leg and then she told me to use my voice which I did. My other instructor also got mad at me because I had "death grip' pn the reins... I admit I did but I was trying to keep the horse from going into the other arena again. And I got yelled at for that too. And now I really lost my confidence because I have been having a bad month of riding and my instructors keep yelling at me. I like my instructors and the people at my barn but its frustrating. What should I do?
How can I gain control and confidence? Ik it's my fault not the horses but what can I do? Switch barns? I have tried every school horse they have and the one I loved hurt his back, and the other one is getting a habit of bucking people off.