Selling Ricky :(:(:(
Just note, I'm writing this in tears so sorry if my spelling, and general coherence is going hay-wire.
I don't know what to do. I was ready for a young horse when I was working with my trainer each week. Now I haven't been to see her in over 3 months and I haven't ridden in over a month. Ricky was the perfect horse when I was working with my trainer, and now my parents expect me to hop on Ricky after he is broken even though I haven't ridden in over a month. So you might say the easiest thing to do is to gt lessons? Well I can't because my trainer has no more ridng horses. She sold them all and theres no other western places I can get lessons.
I've dealt with Ricky's problems on my own, but I don't know why everyone is pressuring me into getting him broken and riding him. I've worked with so many young horses before but the pressures from school, and my friends and work is just getting to me.
I love my pony more than anything in the world. He holds me together when everything is going wrong. Hes my baby; forever and always. He's the only boy I trust cause I know deep down as much as he can kick and rear, he will never break my heart.
I don't know what to do. Seriously I don't. We don't have the time anymore to take him to the trainers, I work, Dad works, Mum works. I think its time I put him up for sale. I think its time I buy myself a riding horse and just get back into competing.
I know of a mare thats for sale at the moment who is perfect for me and is the same price for what I would sell Ricky for. I really just want to ride and have a pony that I can spend time with and bond iwth. But I already have such a connection with Ricky. How can I sell the only thing in my life that I can actually rely on? How come I just give my boy?
Deep down, I know selling him is the best option. I know I should sell him to a home where he will be shown and to a place where he will get the attention and work he needs.
I know to you guys, that this happens every day. People sell their ponies and move on, but I don't know whether I'm doing the right thing.
a)Should I sell my pony? Sell my world, my boo, my man who I know will never break my heart?
b)Send him away for training? Lease him out?
c)Forget about the pressures from school and just focus on him?