Thank you so much for the support everyone :)
I do actually know a pretty good trainer, he came to work on Samson's feet a while back, and he said if we ever needed help to give him a call and he would work with him in a roundpen. I dont think its worth breaking a bunch of bones because i wouldnt be doing any riding for a while after breaking bones anyway!
But yeah, i thinks its best that i get more experience on a horse that i trust, and before long i'll get to,
ill be riding a Paint :) im pretty scared but i will get over my fear, im strong and determined :)
"Running free in a field of dreams...galloping cloud like I've never seen"