I've basically done right now. Chance was so good for the past few weeks even times where I couldnt come up for a week so I just groomed... well these past 3 days I've ridden OR played with her shes bucked, bolted, kicked out.....
I got on today and she just was braceing her neck, bolting to where SHE wanted to go.. there was no compromise..
I finally said fine u wanna go? go! and put her on the 12' line nad just run her fast because I was way over frusturation point. Pulled her to make her change direction. When I did get back on she still did it, which lead me to kicking and one rein stoping HARD, slapping her bneck etc im sure I ruined our relationship at the moment....
but Honestly! Im really sick of this amazingly good where u think ur getting somewhere then .. the next day its like she hasn't been ridden!
And Its not fair to her because I want to ride w.t.c and jump.. I want to show.. I dont want to spends years on ground...... I love ground work and playing but I've done to much of it! So it all leads me to pushing her.. even though we've done ALL of the stuff im asking for.. even if it means trotting in a 20 meter circle! or cantering around. I swear shes bi polar. again One day we are w.t.c and jumping, next we cant even trot half the arena.
I want to send her to a trainer, but my mom just WONT. "thats to far away" "thats to exspensive"
Sorry Im just ranting. I need some supportive advice or some thing I can do. :(