Well even though it didn't turn out the way you THOUGHT you wanted it to, looks like it turned out pretty darn good after all! Congrats to you and your hubby and best wishes during your pregnancy.
I'm a firm believer in "everything happens for a reason" and obviously, even though it felt right, there was just something not right about Cody for your particular situation. Again, congrats and hopefully after your little bundle arrives you will find that your heart has healed enough and you will find that perfect horse!
When riding my horse I no longer have my heart in my chest, but between my knees.