That's one te reasons w bought my peruvian gelding Rico.....confidence builder. After I took my nasty fall off of Jester I was shaking everytime I got on him and Jeste ris one who will get jittery if you are jittery, and when he's jittery I was jitter yon top of being jittery anyway.....Eh. You see where that went.
But Rico was one of those you could do anything to and he would just say "Yes Mom." and do what you wanted. Like I have no hesitation using my reins or crop or spurs, and I will admit I can be a little bit too wicked sometimes. But being afraid to spur Jester after that I could ge ton Rico and spur sur spur all I want and if he was being a jerk I could slap him on the butt with my reins wit hno problem. He turned me into an automatic robot as far as ridng goes, so when I finally did get on Jester I would instinctively just cowboy him and then it was "Mom's back to normal I better start listening now...." and I never hae had to cowboy him since. I don't like to cowboy any hors eunless deserved, which is rare.
Good job on getting your confidence back. It' a great feeling and I know you and Leo an keep it going
Oh, and if you get sick of him.....send me a message. He's such a cutie