the horse i ride wont stop bolting and running out of jumps!!

OP, I know how it feels to be attached to a certain horse whom you don't own & so knuckle under to pressure, even though you know that it's not best for the horse & yourself. Stop & think whether continuing is best for the horse. This is your moment of truth, to do what's best for this poor horse, who's caught in the middle of human egos.

And continuing with this dangerous scenario will either cause a wreck, & with owners not liking you, your time is short anyway. Ask me how I know this.

These situations suck, & seems like all the wrong people own horses sometimes; I do sympathize.

Okay, I understand... I just wish things had turned out differently... ill give it one last shot and see if they let me buy him, if not then I guess that's our story finished :'( thank you everyone for your comments, its helped a lot

If you end up buying him, for goodness' sakes, let us know so that we can celebrate! (& help you with getting him ok inside!)

Thank you northern!! I will trust me it will be everywhere!! :)