Join Date: Aug 2008
Location: Albuquerque, NM
How often do you jump? Is it your choice when you do it, or is it your trainers?
If you jump every single lesson, you might want to just have some flat lessons. Maybe then you won't be nervous when you go into the ring? On the other hand, if your trainer is the one who is telling you to go over that first jump, perhaps you should find one who understands your fear and tries to get you comfortable as well? Then when you feel comfortable you start jumping, so it is your decision, not someone else's.
Not understanding your full situation, these are the best ideas I can come up with, so I'm sorry if they're not much help.
A strange thing kind of similar is happening to me right now..but the opposite LOL. At my last trainer, I rode her horses and I was terrified going over jumps, especially when she raised them. Even the 19 year old former hunter who was totally seasoned and a great horse to re-learn how to jump on terrified me over jumps. Now that I'm teaching my own horse how to jump, a horse that is much greener and much younger, I am as brave as can be. I even, on a whim, decided to raise the jump to 2 feet on him just for fun, even though he hadn't quite gotten the concept of jumping. On other horses, I was a nervous wreck before I jumped a 2' for the first time. I think it is because I trust him so much more, because I know more of his history. That might have something to do with your worry as well...
Good luck with your fear!!!!!