For the last couple of months I've been re-introduced into jumping. I've jumped before when I was younger, and used to really enjoy it, but I took a break off riding a couple of years back and seem to have lost that enjoyment. During the lessons I've been riding the same horse, who is quite a new horse to the place I ride at. She goes really well for me, but jumping has become quite difficult for me. The last time I ridden her I fell off because she bucked into canter quite suddenly, and now I don't feel like I can trust her going any faster than trot (and I certinally wouldn't trust her to jump). She's also quite 'jumpy' when I go over jumps with her. So far I've refused to go over anything bigger than 2 feet because I've lost so much confidence from jumping her when she's been quite jumpy. I've fallen on her neck and just managed to stay on a few times, and the landing seems to be the scariest and most difficult part, and now I feel that I can't even bear approching even a small jump because I simply can't find the confidence. I have jumped two other horses where I ride, and I find it quite a smooth and pleasant experiance when I jumped them. The 'instructor' who takes my lessons is about the same age as me (and is just kind of filling in for the qualified ones) so she can't help me much. I've been thinking of asking to change horses, but I don't want to do it, then relize that it was just how I was feeling, rather than how the horse was jumping, because I was fine on her until she became jumpy and on edge. And I don't want to not jump at all because:
1. The other girl in my lesson seems to really enjoy jumping, and has been getting better and better. I don't want to not jump any more, and risk it being cut out of the lesson.
2. I'm quite an advanced rider (i've been riding for most of my life) and there's not really any other genral stuff to learn, apart from jumping. I'm already quite bored with my lessons, and not jumping would be even more boring.
I want to get over my fear and regain my confidence. Can anyone suggest anything. I apoligise for the mass of text