BUT....I jumped him 2'6"!!!!!! ON THE FIRST TRY!!!! (and the second, and the third...on the 4th try he started bucking and refused haha) We did a small course, only 4 fences, but one was a single fence in the middle of the arena, one was an oxer, and one was the 2'6" fence. I don't think I've ever ridden so hard in my LIFE! Even after he refused, I didn't give up. Or accept defeat! (haha) There were a few fences he thought about refusing, but I kept driving with my seat & legs and we got over. Before, we would have stopped. Everytime.
As you'll see, our first attempt was a bit of a fail. He refused the first fence twice, then the second fence, and then we got down the final line. Our second try was good though - he only refused the first fence.
Aaand - I wasn't scared. At all. I can't get over this - in a year I've gone from crying at the thought of riding him to getting him through bucks/refusals and laughing about it!
Anyways...my awesome mom ^-^ took pictures and video so here you go:
(the first course was the fail, second one was sooo much better!)