I must admit I was kinda hoping that your dog would jump the fence after you. Funny watching this little white thing hooning around after you :P
You did really well to start overcoming your fears! I wish I could... If anything gets over 90cm, I totally freak out. It's a huge push for me to even do 90cm and I'll only do it on my friends mare. I trust her jumping more than I've ever trusted jumping on any other horse, yet I still psych myself out. I won't go higher than 80cm on any other horse.
That mare has given me back so much confidence I lost on my old show jumper. He used to charge at fences like he was going into battle... I must give him credit though, he never spooked at a jump until we did D Grade. That STARTED at 90cm and went up to 1.10M
. Yes. Meters. He knew I wasn't ready so he balked a ton in the warm up and that really shook me for the course. I was a wreck and was nearly vomiting from nerves by the time I was at jump 4.
I spent the summer building myself back up after terminating my lease on the crazy horse. I can now compete a 90cm equitation course and place well. But ask me to go higher on ANY other horse but that mare, I'll do 60cm. 70cm if you're lucky.
Kudos to you for pimp slapping your fear. Sorry for the rambling