A month or so I fell off Stoney when he ducked out infront of a jump. It was completely my fault he ducked out, I didnt have him straight nor did we have enough momentum to make the jump, anyways, I ended up landing on the jump, and breaking it. Like snapping the pole in half. This hurt so bad, but I wasnt scared or anything. I didnt not get back on (we were worried I had fractured my hip) but next week I was jumping again no problem.
Anyways, I fell off last friday when Stoney stopped infront of a 2'9 oxer and well, I didnt stop. I wasnt hurt or anything, I jumped up and got back on. But then I realized how scared I was. I tried to get him to jump the jump I had fallen off of over, but I couldnt get him to go over it. So my instructor told me to jump the little 18" crossrail. He wouldnt. So I hopped off and we lunged him over both jumps, he didnt even bat an eye, he just hopped over them no problem. He wouldnt jump them because I was scared to. I've never been scared to jump in my life. And now, im scared to jump even the smallest of jumps. I want to quit jumping.
Does anyone know any tips on how I can get my confidence back?
Ps. Sorry about any spelling mistakes, I typed this all really quickly