Originally Posted by upnover
YAYYYYYYY!!!! That's VERY exciting news!! And so inspirational for all of those posts from people that have been about building confidence or jumping again after an accident. Thank you for posting your vulnerabilities and weaknesses here! I love hearing from someone who can admit their fears and then work towards getting past them.
PS- Nelson is a freakin rockstar. ;)
Thank you, you're making me blush! I honestly beat myself up allllll the bloomin' time for this fear that I allowed to take over my mentallity and life. I would get so angry at myself because I couldn't go over anything bigger than 2'7".
I would look at everyone else around me, kids younger than me even, going bigger, advancing up in levels, passing me and moving onwards in the sport.....and I would feel, stupid.
I am not going to lie, when I say that I have a blast at Beginner Novice. I have fun! I laugh, I joke around I go out and just, get it done - but I believe that's because I've allowed myself to get so comfortable with that level, that I don't have to "think" about it. But now that I am stepping up, to a level that I am not familiar with, I'm nervous.
I'm stepping out of that comfort zone, and it's scarey, I am not going to lie. But, I have an amazing horse, I have an amazing coach, and I know I can do it.