Thank you everyone, I can't even begin to explain how appreciative I am of all the support I have been receiving on here.
Barry Godden, thank you for all your kind words and advice. (and if only my English teacher thought my writing skills were as great! Her complaint is that I'm often too 'wordy' which I can agree with... choppy, repetitive sentences aren't my thing!)
I will most certainly keep riding, as it truly is one of my passions in life, although I believe owning a horse added a completely different dimension to it. I had leased a couple horses prior to Indie, but that bond never held a candle to that I had with Indie, despite both leases lasting roughly a year and a half.
I still believe it was destiny that Indie and I ended up together. I had skipped over her ad multiple times until I figured that I might as well go check her out... and I feel so blessed to have taken that chance on her.
Even during her last few hours, she still had the kindest eye. Words cannot quite describe the look in her eyes that she got when she saw me coming down the barn aisle. I know many people say that horses don't "love", but Indie could easily have been the exception to that.
She was an atypical Thoroughbred, my instructor had warned me that they were crazy and hot-blooded... but Indie was anything but. In her three months at the barn, she had witnessed out-of-control alpacas, the murder of a pigeon, gusty winds and not even batted an eyelash. Everyone was impressed by her, and I was incredibly proud to call her mine.
I've said this many times before, but I got lucky with Indie.
I'll keep your advice in mind about not rushing to get another horse. I have a brief idea in mind of what I'd like when time comes, but I'd like the horse to be sound enough for jumping and dressage. It also might be stereotyping to an extent, but I have a feeling that my next horse will also be a mare. Until then, my instructor has offered to let me ride her horses whenever I feel up to it, so maybe I'll get on her 17.3hh Percheron cross or her grumpy Thoroughbred gelding, to expand my skillset.
If anything, Indie taught me so much about dedication and horse ownership in general. My only wish would have been for her to have displayed some sort of symptoms before it had been too late. I am so grateful that I was there for her last moments, but seeing the light fade from her eyes will remain a painful memory.
I probably could write a book about my experiences with Indie, I'd say I've written enough in here to put together a few chapters. I'm glad that I had taken the time to write the entries though, although they became short and sweet leading to the days prior to her passing.
Forever loved, never forgotten; my beautiful Indie. <3 Hoofprints on my heart.
Last edited by Jore; 11-26-2012 at 06:12 PM.