02-20-2010, 08:12 PM
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Okay so theres this freshman, Alex. Im a sophmore and I really like him. He started coming over to my table at lunch a couple of weeks ago, just ti talk for a minute, then he'd leave. Today for the first time he spent the entire period sitting next to me at lunch, leaning on me, arm to arm, leg to leg. Near the end of the period he was leaning his head on me, just kinda messing around. Anyhow, this other girl at my table Ashley likes him too. She and I arent really friends, we just kinda share friends. The problem comes down to the fact that my other friend taylor is picking sides. She's tryin to talk me into backing down, just cause ashley hasnt had a bf for awhile. I don't really care if ashley gets mad at me, what I care is if taylor does. Alex used to sit at my other friends table and she said that he never came anywhere near them, so im really starting to think he likes me too.
Taylor feels bad for Ashley. Which I don't really get. Alshley is about 5'3 doesnt dress the best and wears her hair in pigtails alot, add in the fact that she wears no make up and it makes her look like a little kid. Im 5'11 and im very attentive to my apperence and am mistaken for being older than I am all the time. Alex is 6'2 and looks perfect in proportion to me, he towers over her to the point where it just looks weird.
I've never said a thing to ash about her looks, I just understand why he isnt looking at her, cause she doesnt care to much about how she presents herself. I didnt mean to come off as a brat for saying that. I don't even think he knows her name and I don't think she even knows his last name. They just don't talk. Ashley is to shy to make any move wether its guys or friends, she wont stand up for herself or talk at all really. That's where Taylor comes in. Taylor plays the role of big sister and most of the time voice for ashley. She likes to talk through taylor cause taylor is super confident and outgoing. Taylor is everything ashley is not. That's where it gets tough. Taylor and I are kinda high in our social group of friends, everyone else is kinda passive and just follows along with our ideas. Until now Tay an I have always been on the same page. Im just afraid that now im starting a tear in the group that will only grow larger in time.
Its not as much about looks as it is the fact that she doesnt speak for herself. She seems to have no selfconfidence, that's what keeps her and I from actually being friends. We barely know eachother and we just have taylor as a comon link.
Lets just drop the looks issue cause that's not what im worried about. So here is todays update... Please forgive my following diagram of our table
So that's how we were all sitting. Fisnic is an exchange student and he had a geography question about the usa so I pulled out my history textbook and was kneeling at the end of the table by him, answering his question. So the table looked like this.
Then alex came over and stood behind me so it looked like this.
So he playfully stepped on my foot to get my attention and we (alex just about everyone there and me) started talking. Ashley looked up once, never said a word the took out her itouch and started listening to music. Totally ignoring all of us. That's why I don't really like her. My friend Candice who sit at the other table that alex sits at offered to tell him I like him tomorow while im at my lab. So im going to do that cause theres no way I can have an honnest talk with him infront of mu friends. They might just kill me. I think they wouldnt care if he asked me but im afraid that if I asked him and they knew that they'd be mad.
I got a message today from Ashley, this is the first time she approached me about it. She just pretty much told me that he was too outgoing for her and that she was too shy for him and that Alex and I would be cute together :) so that just solved itself. Ofcourse now something else had to come along and make me doubt myself. Tonight I was at the school buying tickets for gym night (school based event that's extremely popular) he was just a few people behind me in line. After I bought my tickets I walked over to see what night he was going, he's going friday, just like me. So then I was walking out with him talking and I handed him my phone and asked for his number. His reasponse, "nah im good" with a smile on his face and then I jokingly called him mean and he said his ride was here, which it was and that he'd give it to me tomorow at school. Heres the thing, I think/hope he was just messing around and teasing me, but im not 100% sure he was. Second problem, I have lab tomorow. I wont see him. My friend was going to tell him I like him tomrow. If I have his number I rather do it myself. I was thinkin that if I just have my friend appologize fir me having lab and give him my number might make me look a little too desprate to get it. What in the world do I do now?!
I called off my friend. Im waiting till monday to see if he even comes over and sits with me agin :)
He found me today in the hall after 1st pd. I don't know how but he did. I was walking to photo all my myself and all of a sudden some one bumps into me with a playful shoulder shove. It was Alex. I ammediately smiled like an idiot and said "hey" then told him jokingly "ohh and im mad at you" he looked at me super confuse and asked why? Then I told him he was mean and he just laughed and said sorry. Then I told him "ohh and by the way I wont see you today" and he questioned why and I told him I had lab. He then said "ohh that sucks" then he just walked me to class and we went our seprate ways. Then I accidentaly ran into him tge period after on the way to my locker and he joking accused me of stalking and I just laugued and said he snuck up on me earlier. Then we both had to go to class. I didnt see him for the rest of the day. My friend who is at the other table that he stays at was talking to him today during lunch. She said to him "so you've been cheating on us with that other table, and whos that girl you were leaning on the other day?" after she said that apparently he turned red an put his headphones in and ignored them for awhile. When he took out his headphones again she asked "so whats her name?" playing stupid, his reasponse was "ohh the girl who has lab today, that's Amanda." still turning slightly red. So I think things are going in the right dirrection and that he was just messing with me last night :)