I am so very tired and stressed right now. My wrist is not getting any better. I'm pretty sure this is going on 2 months now that it's been bothering me this time. Far longer than it's ever lasted before. I'm the only one who thinks this is a problem (well, my friends think it's a problem but they can't do anthing about it). My parents keep saying just give it time it will heal. Well, no actually, it won't heal because in order for tendonitis to heal you have to rest the area completely for 3 weeks, at least. And there is absolutly nothing about my life that will allow me to not use my wrist for 3 weeks. Maybe it would be a little more possible if it were my non dominant hand, but alas this is not the case. Even if it was, that wouldn't allow for complete rest, just slightly more than my right wrist. Someone suggested I get a cortizone shot. I didn;t knwo if that would help or not becasue I thought that was just for arthritis. My sister told me it is for inflamation in general and that it would help with the pain but wouldn't make it heal. Well, 2 things: one, it's cronic tendonitis. It's never going away. It might stop hurting for awhile, but it will always be there just waiting to flare up again. Two, since it will never go away completely and I can't rest to allow it to heal anyway, wouldn't you think the next best option would be to try and make it less painful for me? I think it would be. I think that's a fantastic option. But my parents (who are in charge of whether or not I go to the doctor since it's their insurance and whatnot) think it's fine. Just suck it up and it will go away eventually. It's getting WORSE people!!! As in the opposite of going away!!! So maybe you should help me do something about it before it's too late and I have to have surgery on my freaking wrist!!! Then I will really be screwed.
Apparently Lucas reared in the isle the other day and almost kicked someone in the head. This is because my friend's mom thinks she knows enough to handle him. On a good day this may be true, if Lucas is on his very best behavior. When he has been on more than a month of stall rest, this is not true. He also knows he can get away with things because she can't handle him. He never pulls that crap with me or anyone else at the barn who handles him. Also, my friend's mom decided to call the vet and ask if I could start riding him a bit. I don't know what she said to the vet, but she sure as hell didn't tell her the truth. I got a voice mail from friend's mom saying the vet said I could ride him for 15 mins a day, with a nice long walk to warm up and then I could trot him down the long sides of the arena. Now, last time I talked to friend's mom I told her that I didn't feel any heat in Lucas' leg AT THAT MOMENT. That it had still been a bit warm that morning and the previous day, etc. She asked if she could tell the vet that there was no heat anymore. I said you can tell her that there was no heat Monday evening but that there was some Monday morning and that we don;t know for sure that it will be staying cool as this is the frist time there's been no heat. I think if the vet had gotten all of that info, she wouldn't have ok-ed riding him. I'm going to give the vet a call and ask if that's the info she got and if she still thinks it is fine to ride him. She is coming on the 16th to do spring shots so she will look at him then. I'm not hopeful for a good outcome. There was still quite a bit of heat today.
I need a third job. I don't really want a third job. It's going to be a huge PITA. I'm tired when I finally finish classes and working my two other jobs. Yeah I get home around 3:30-4ish, but I've been up since 6 with absolutly no break. I barely have time to eat. I've got 15 mins between classes so I can eat then. But that's it. I don't have time to go buy food so it has to be whatever I can bring with me. And even though there is a microwave near by, by the time I'm done standing in the line to use it and cook whatever I won't have time to eat it all. And sometimes that line is so long I wouldn't have time to eat at all. I really hate that they made the rule that you can't eat in class anymore. And that teachers are listening to it. So, I have breakfast around 7, then I get whatever I can eat in 15 minutes, and that's it til 3. At the earliest. If I get another job who knows when I'll be able to eat. Of course, I don't necessarily need another job. But I would really love to show this summer so I would need it for the money to show. I could always not show. But that would suck. I'm really getting into it so I'd llike to be able to keep going. Plus, I really don't make very good money write now. I'll have to do the math and see if I'm even making enough to cover gas. I wouldn't be suprised if I'm not. Life really kind of sucks right now.