Don't worry Emily, I will!! I can't even believe this is happening though. The newest development is that I could possibly get to lease her! I can't quite afford what her owner is asking for and I'm kind of being a wuss on asking if she might take a bit less. I hate asking people these things because I feel like people just think you are trying to get a good deal out of them, which is not at all what I'm doing. I would gladly pay what she's asking if I could afford it. Anyway, I'm putting off asking because if it doesn't work out then I'll be pretty sad so I just want to hold on to this happy, it's-a-possibility feeling a bit longer. GAH!!! So HAPPY!! Posted via Mobile Device
Best news EVER! Lola's owner said that as long as Lola and I still get along that the amount I can pay will work!! I'm going Sunday evening to ride her :) I am so excited, words cannot describe. Now we just have to see if we are still a good fit. I have to keep reminding myself that I can't let my feelings get in the way when I go to ride her. I have to be totally honest with myself about whether or not I feel like we are a good match. I know I'm going to be tempted to say I don't care what happens, I'm going to lease her anyway, but that's probably not the best thing to do. So I just have to keep my fingers crossed that I remember how to ride her well.
If I do end up leasing her I won't be able to afford to continue with lessons at the barn I'm at now. I'm a bit sad about that because I do really like the place and I've enjoyed being there. The people are nice, the horses are nice, they've got a wonderful property. This chance with Lola won't be around forever though so I'd rather take in than stay where I'm at.
I realized that I've actually taken a lesson at the barn Lola is at. I'm guessing she might actually have been there when I took that lesson. I probably would've fainted if I'd seen her that day. Anyway, I really like the barn and was seriously considering continuing to go there, but they don't have an indoor and I was being super picky at that point.
I don't think I've ever told the story of what happened with me and Lola on here. I got her when I was 14 so it was long before I was a member on here (heck, the forum might not have existed back then!) and it's kind of painful for me to think about so I don't talk about it often. These last few days have been a major emotional roller coaster for me. I'm so happy about hearing how she's doing and getting to see her again but remembering everything that happened has been rough. I think I will post the full story in the next few days and maybe some pictures from when I go to see her. That's Lola in my avatar, by the way. Anyway, here's hoping things go really well on Sunday!
I just wrote a whole post about how I'm panicking about going to try Lola tonight. I feel zero percent better. I was hoping writing it down would help get it out. Nope. Guess I'll just have to try and distract myself for the rest of the day.
I do have a project I have been meaning to get started on but I'm too busy panicking to get started on it. I'm going to force myself to get to work in a minute, hopefully. I like to make jewelry and various other things, which I have always intended on selling. I've made a few minimum effort attempts, but now that I am basically unemployed I figured it'd be a good time to really go for it. I don't like the idea of having to spend money to make money, but at this point I've already got a ton of stuff. It would take me a long time to use it all up, and if I can actually succeed in selling the stuff I could make a fair amount I think. I've got quite a few pieces made already. I just need to get some good photos to use when listing them, which is what I am hoping to get done today. That is, if I can get myself to calm down enough to focus on it.
Of course, this is something else I'm anxious about doing. I'd love to be able to make a living staying at home all day and making pretty things. There's a big chance it won't work out because I'm not the best business woman and the is such a vast availability for all this handmade stuff these days. At this point, I can afford to keep things cheap. I bought all my supplies so long ago that I have no idea how much they cost. I'm not in that "I need to make my money back plus profit" place at this point. But if things sell and I want to attempt to sustain it I'll need to really figure out if I can make enough to buy more supplies and make a profit. Plus I'd need money for marketing. Ugh. I no longer have a stressful job so I sit here and stress myself out about anything and everything else.
I started riding when I was 10. My parents picked a barn that was run by a family that they knew. It didn't have a large lesson program (it was mostly a boarding/breeding operation) but it was enough for little beginner me. I liked my instructor a lot, so when she left to go to a new barn, I followed. I rode at barn #2 for a short time before leaving (I don't recall why). Barn #3 was quite a large operation (one of those places with "Horse Center" as part of the name). I liked it and thought it was a pretty nice place. I rode there for a while, taking lessons from the various instructors that passed through and from the owner as well. I volunteered there sometimes, in hopes of learning more about horses and their care.
For my 12th birthday, my parents bought me a pony. He wasn't well trained and we ended up not being a good match, so we sold him to a classmate of mine who had horses and had been riding since birth. I continued on at barn #3 with the latest instructor, who we will call T.
T and his wife were very friendly and well liked at the barn. I enjoyed my lessons with him and thought he was a great instructor. The other girls in my group lesson thought so too. Shortly before my 14th birthday, my parents asked T to help find a horse for me. Since things hadn't gone well with the pony they thought they'd enlist the help of a professional this time around. T found a horse for me to try out at a farm where some friends of his had horses for sale. He took me there one day to try the horse out. That horse was Lola. She was a 3yo thoroughbred, but she didn't act it at all. She was wonderfully trained and I was told she was taking inexperienced riders through courses and winning ribbons. She was a perfect angel when I rode her that day. I fell in love. I told my parents I wanted her and we arranged for me to ride her again so my parents could be there and she what they thought. The people who owned her hauled her to a show for my next ride (I didn't actually show her, it was just a good meeting place since they were showing some other horses). It gave me a chance to see how she did in an unfamiliar setting, amidst the hustle and bustle of a show. Lola did wonderfully again. My mom had some reservations about getting me a 3 year old horse (she wanted something older), but after seeing how well behaved Lola was she thought it might be ok.
A few days later my parents told me that they couldn't reach an agreement on price, so we wouldn't be able to get Lola. I was heartbroken. I tried to get over it and told myself that if it was meant to be it would've worked out. At my next lesson T told me that his friends had another horse for me to try out that weekend. Saturday was my birthday and I thought trying out a horse would be a great way to spend it. My parents agreed I could go, so on my birthday we made the trip to the sale barn again. We arrived and I was shown the horse I was supposed to be trying out. The trainer told me if I didn't like that horse, he had one more for me to try. He directed me to a stall at the back of the barn. I went over to look, and there was Lola with a big red bow around her neck.
I'll continue with our history in my next post.
As for how riding her this past weekend went, it was great. Lola's owner and I spent a long time chatting, and she is just as nice in person as she has been in her messages. It was so good to see Lola again. She didn't give any indication of remembering me, but that wasn't really surprising. The girl who has been riding Lola got on her first to warm her up and let me see how she goes. She still has some of the behaviors she did when I had her. Then I got on her and rode her around a bit. It was wonderful. I forgot how smooth her gaits are. Her owner has gotten all of Lola's issues worked out over the years, so she no longer rushes around the ring like I remember, which is great to see. She's actually a little bit pokey now :) Her owner said we looked great together. I'm going to ride her again sometime this week and then we will discuss the lease further :)
Some pictures! The first two are from the day I got her, and the second two are from this weekend :)
Thanks Emily! I hope it works out too. I really was so happy to ride her :)
I should be going out tomorrow evening to ride Lola again and talk things over with her owner. We were going to do Thursday but you know how life goes. So we moved it to Sunday again. I'm hoping everything will work out. At this point I'm thinking it may be an issue that I won't really be able to afford lessons if I lease her. The girl who rides her now does most of the morning shifts at the barn and since she is leaving in the next few months, they will need someone to replace her. If Lola's owner wants me to take lessons I suppose I could take a morning shift or two to pay for them. But at this point I'm really not into the idea of working at a barn again. There are time when I really miss it, but right now when it is so humid outside that it's hard to breathe? Don't miss the working outside so much :/ Plus, I'm not so much a fan of having a job that you MUST show up to, no matter what. And if you absolutely can't show up you have to find someone to cover for you. I've had those types of jobs for pretty much my entire working life. Now that I don't, I'm not sure I want to go back to it. I don't know... I guess if I just did one day I'd be fine. The girl was saying she does five mornings a week and that is enough to pay for her lessons and get a pay check. I think I may talk to her about it more... I'm really torn on that one.
I'm not really ready to write more and the history on me and Lola. The rest of the story is all pretty much a crap fest, and I just haven't wanted to write it out yet.
My lesson on Wednesday was tough. It's harder in the heat and my asthma seems to be worse lately. I was working on jumping a bounce (which I'm not sure I've ever actually done before) and I couldn't get Stormy to lengthen his stride enough to actually do the bounce correctly. He was always able to squeeze a stride in there :/ I really felt like a failure when this other girl in the ring came up to me and said she had just started jumping too and wanted to give me pointers. Now, I'm all for getting advice, even if someone is less experienced than I am. Sometimes we forget the basics that we learn in the beginning. The thing that got me was the "just started jumping too". TOO??? You think I just started jumping?? How terrible did I look?!?
Ugh. That was a bit of a blow to the ol' self esteem there. I know I'm having more trouble getting back into shape this time. I gained a lot of weight during this break from riding and I think that is part of what is making it difficult for me to get back to where I was. I can't figure out how to use my body correctly because it's different now and it gets tired WAY more easily than before. I've never had to work at being in shape before so I'm a bit miffed that I have to now. It kind of deters me from actually working out or anything because I know progress will be slow, and that really bugs me! But if I don't do something I'll be like this forever. I need to put up some of those recent pictures of me riding Lola around the house. I cringe when I look at those. Good motivation to work out!
I just sent a message to Lola's owner. My second ride went amazingly and she said she would definitely feel comfortable with me leasing Lola. I wussed out on telling her I wouldn't really be able to afford lessons. Instead, I asked if she could find out any info on the working student program so that I could maybe work off lessons. She got back to me a couple days ago. It takes 2 shifts to pay off a lesson and the girl who currently works there said it take 3-4 hours to get everything done. I was really hoping I could make that work, but I can't. I work 8-2 at my current job so by the time I finished at the barn, showered, and got to work I'd only have 3 hours left. I work for my parents so I could technically do this, but that's two days a week I'm only working 3 hours. I can't afford to lose that much pay a week. At that point I might as well just pay out of pocket. Plus, I honestly do think that previous job stress was taking a toll on my health, so I want to continue to be as stress-free as possible for a while. Anyway, I messaged her and told her I thought the best I could swing is doing one lesson a month. I'm fully prepared for her to tell me that won't work and that she needs someone who can get weekly lessons. I told her I completely understand if that's the case. So now we wait and see what she says.
This whole thing is really fueling me to work on trying to get my own business up and running. I've gotten a shop up and running but I only have a few things in there. I've got a lot of items photographed and ready to add but I suck at writing good descriptions so I'm putting it off til I'm in a good writing mood. I know it's not likely that I'll make a lot of money doing this, but some people do. So I keep hoping I'll be one of those people, and then I'll be able to afford leasing and lessons.
AHHH!!! She said one lesson a month should be fine!!! The barn requires at least that so we will do that this month and see how it goes. You should prepare yourself for many riding critique threads from me. I soooo want to make this work and I would definitely be taking more lessons if I could so I'll do what I can to make up for it.