Still no job but I'm hoping maybe someone will call in the next few days. Since it was getting so close to Black Firday I'm hoping they just didn't want to have someone so new working. So maybe after today they will still need people for the holidays and I'll get something. *fingers crossed*
I feel like my BM doesn't like me. I didn't used to feel that way but the past couple of weeks I've been feeling like she thinks I can't do anything right. There are papers on the back of the feed room door that are divided up into the days of the week so that comments can be written on them. Everytime you work you're supposed to check for comments on the last day you worked. Everytime I go now there's things written on there that I swear I didn't do. Forgetting to blanket some of the horses, putting the wrong supplements in their feed, leaving a stall unlatched, etc. I never did any of that!!! I know I've made some mistakes, because there are some things I didn't know I had to do because no one told me. But stuff like that is basic stuff that I know, and I know I didn't do any of it. But since I don't see the comments until a week later there's nothing I can do about it. There's no way to check if I actually did these things wrong because it was a week ago. It makes me uncomfortable because now everytime I go to the barn I'm freaking about doing anything wrong even though I know I didn't do anything the last time. When I leave I'm sure that this time I've done everything right and that there won't be any comments next week but I'm always wrong.
I'm trying to get back into my religion. I miss how I felt when I was practicing it before some I want to get back into that. I hope I will have enough time because it's going to involve a lot of reading and learning. And I've already got more going on than I used to. Since I now know what I want to do school-wise I know I need to actually be getting good grades, plus the work I've got to do with finding a school and transfering. Then there's working at the barn, and riding when I finally get to start lessons. And then if I actually get a job I'll have that, plus there's all sorts of holiday things I have to do. So the last thing I need right now is something else that involves time but I really want to do this so I guess I'll make time.
Speaking of things that are going to take up more of my time, I think I should write a book. I read a lot and I'm a good writer so I figure I could do it. I've got a pretty good imagination too so I figure I could write some sort of young adult fantasy novel type thing. Of course I don't know anything about writing a book or how to get it published or anything so it would be an extremly major undertaking. But I feel like I could write something good that would do well so I really want to try and do this.
So that's it for now. All sorts of plans, not a whole lot of time.