Amba's Journal

Well the barn manager said she can cover my shift tomorrow so I'll have my second offical day at my new job. I'm glad I got that figured out. I was so afraid I wouldn't find anyone to cover either job for me. That would've been really bad. But it all worked out. I almost had a panic attack because I had to call a bunch of people (I have some anxiety disorders and making phone calls is one of my issues) but it's all over now. I just hope the barn manager doesn't think I'm a flake. This is the second time I've had to do this. Hopefully it'll be the last.

I got my new boots today. I had gotten some for Christmas but I didn't like the fit so I went to Dover with my parents to pick out a different pair. I wanted the lace ups but they were out so they ordered some and had them shipped to us. They're really nice heavy duty winter boots. Waterproof and insulated and all that. It's a good thing my half chaps were a little big on me because the boots are a little bigger than my old ones. So now the chaps fit perfectly over the boots. I'm a little sad I won't be going to the barn tomorrow. I wanted to break my boots in but now I'll have to wait til my lesson on Friday. However, I am extremly happy that there is no chance of me dumping a bucket full of water down my legs tomorrow. Because I still don't have any waterproof pants.

I should be going to bed but I feel like writing. My lesson got canceled tonight. I'm pretty bummed about that. I kind of can't believe I just used the word "bummed". Anyway, it snowed last night. Not anywhere near as much as last time but enough that the barn manager decided to cancel the lessons. I was extra excited because I didn't get to wear my new boots yet and I was looking foward to wearing them tonight. Plus, of course, I just really wanted to ride.

Apparently I'm doing really well at my new job. Our area manager came in today and he said that I'm awesome (in the context of I'm doing good work and am an awesome employee) which made me feel awesome. Up til then I was feeling like I was doing a sucky job and I was kind of worried about whether or not they'd keep me around. My costumer service skills still need improvement and I'm still learning stuff but at least now I feel a little better about the whole thing.

I started designing the add-on to my tattoo. I have a tattoo on my wrist and a little bit ago I decided I wanted to continue it so that it goes all the way around my wrist. I'd been having a hard time finding a design that I liked for it (because when it comes to my tattoos none of my own drawings are good enough for me apparently) but I found one tonight that I'm in love with. So now starts the long and involved tweaking proccess.

Hi,

Whatever came of your biopsy and blood tests? My daughter was diagnosed with celiac disease (wheat/gluten intolerance) a little while ago, felt rotten all the time. Since she's been on her new diet, she feeling better mentally and physically. Glad to hear the new job is working out. Hang in there!

Dana

They didn't find anything. They told me if I want to keep looking they'll have to do a colonoscopy which I am really not pleased about. I haven't decided yet if I think it would be worth it. My sister suggested celiac disease when I first started feeling bad but I feel better when I've eaten so we don't think it's any sort of food allergy/intolerance. Thanks for the comments!

I really hate that hose. A pipe in the watering system ruptured so we must use the hose until furthur notice. At least there is now an attachment on the end that has one of those switches so you can stop the water from coming out without turning it off. It doesn't work very well. I got to wear my new boots. They're really nice. Keep my feet warm and dry. I can't wait to ride in them on Friday.

I just registered for classes. I'm taking US history, a fitness class, creative writing, and web design. I'm pretty pleased with my scheduel. No 8am classes this semester and the latest I'll be there is 1:45. That leaves me enough time to be able to work the closing shift at the mall so I'll still be able to work a fair amount. The only thing I'm not happy about is I can't take photography. I was hoping to take B&W as an audit but the times conflict with my scheduel.

That's about it for now.

Well my best friend just dropped a bomb on me. I can't talk about it because she asked me not to tell anyone. I'm the only one who knows. It's kind of a big thing and I offered to do something big for her because of it. It's not really anything either of us will have to worry about anytime soon. And I totally will do this thing for her, no question. It's just, I would usually say something to my mom or someone about the stuff she tells me. Not everything but when it's something sad like this I would tell someone. Because I'm sad for her. Anyway I can't tell anyone so I'm writing this to help deal with it.

Lesson tomorrow!!! Hoping this warm weather holds out for another day. Not that I wouldn't be happy to ride in the freezing cold. It's just a nicer experience if I can still feel my toes at the end. And then when I dismount it won't be horribly painful for my poor numb feet. Hopefully my lovely new boots will help with that. Probably no pics or video this time. My dad probably won't be home from work and my mom refuses to believe she can learn to use a camera. I guess it doesn't matter much since there won't be much change between last time and this time.

I think I finally finished the design for the rest of my tattoo. I've come up with a design that I am totally happy with. On the computer screen anyway. I'll have to print it out and figure out how to size it now. But the basic designing process is done with. Unless it looks terrible when I size it down to fit on my tiny wrist. If it looks bad then I'm back to square one. I really wish my wrists weren't so tiny. I can't wear store bought braclets because they fall off. The guy who did my tattoo called my wrist a chicken wing :/ Anyways it's done and its beautiful. I can't wait to print it out on tattoo paper and see how it looks on my wrist. Here's hoping it looks as great as it does right now.

PS: As I was reading through my old posts to see if I had previously mentioned the tattoo I discovered that I quite frequently dump water on myself. I find that sad.

Ugh I am so annoyed!! My best friend is supposed to be visiting for a week. She came in today and had been asking me before if I was free on Sat because she wanted to hang out. Well I haven't heard from her since last night (when I was feeling so badly for her) and I really would like to get to bed. But I would also like to know what I'm doing tomorrow!! I tried talking to her but she won't answer me. I don't want to sit around all day waiting to hear from her. She always does this to me!!

My lesson was good. I feel like I did worse this time then I did last time. Like my position was more off. Of course I was riding a more difficult horse so I suppose that might have had something to do with it. I wore my new boots. They kept my feet warmer than the old ones. They were a bit uncomfortable though. I'm hoping its just because I haven't broken them in yet.

Some of the parents were talking about a tack shop that's going out of business that's about an hour away from me. My mom asked if I wanted to go look at what they have since everything is on sale. I might be able to get another pair of boots, which would be awesome. I'm sure I'll end up wanting to buy everything I see.

Someone please tell me why I am best friends with somone who is such a flake. I haven't heard from her at all today, even though we were supposed to get together. I asked her several times last night (online and texting) what time she wanted me to pick her up and I got no answer. I've called her several times today and tried to talk to her online again, no answer. If she weren't talking to other people on facebook I'd be worried about her but she is clearly ignoring me and I don't know why. I mean, why would you even do this to someone. If you can't hang out when you said you wanted to then just say so!! Don't leave me waiting around wondering what happened!! Fortunately I'm used to this from her (maybe I should say sadly) so I told my mom if I hadn't heard from her by the time I got up we would go to the tack shop. I'm really glad I didn't sit around all day waiting to hear from her because it's almost 6:30 and I still haven't heard from her.

So we went to the tack shop and I got some half chaps and a pair of dress boots. I wish I could've found some field boots that fit as well as the dress boots, but no such luck. They also didn't have any paddock boots that fit me. But the stuff we didn't get was 70% off which was great.

Anyway I really just wanted to vent about this thing with my best friend. I work every other day this week so this was the only day we had to hang out (she's going home to MA on Thurs.) and she knows that and she still blew me off. This is the reason I'm her best friend, because no one else will put up with this crap.

Hey keep ya chin up im sure theres more than just me reading this
Were all cheering you on from out here
Hang in there and tell your friend to sort her crap out

Thanks :)

Well I finally heard from her. She claims she was sick. I don't know if that's true or not and honestly I don't care. She was ok enough to get on facebook so she should've been able to text me to say we weren't going to be able to hang out. I did actually see her on Monday. Then she blew me off again on Tuesday. I haven't talked to her since. Talking to her about this does no good. We've been friends since the beginning of high school and she's pretty much always been like this. Talking to her about her self centeredness only results in her getting upset. So whatever. If she ever wants to see/speak to me again she can go right ahead and make an effort. Whatever.

I am in such a terrible mood. This crapy weather better let up because if my lesson gets cancelled again... I don't even know. I need to be able to ride. Once a week is not nearly enough. It's driving me nuts. So if I don't even get my once a week... Life sucks enough without losing the one good thing I've got.