Well, I haven't been on here in a while and I feel like I have so much going on now that I just need to vent.
Things at the barn are falling apart. My favorite horse got moved to another barn and two of the horses got put down while I was on vacation. The barn manager left. I don't know if she quit or was fired. I know she was planning on leaving mid-August, and I guess was staying around so the owner had time to find a replacement. Then I come back from vacation and she's just gone. The owner has taken over the managers responsabilities (obviously there is no one else to do them) but I have to wonder what is going to happen now. The owner has been trying to sell the barn as an up and running business (for far more than anyone is going to pay, according to some). Given that she was hoping to retire soon, now that she has to have such an active role in running things again, I wonder how long things are going to last. I like my job there. There aren't many places around here that you can work off the entire lesson amount. After almost a year there I've finally gotten the hang of things. I know my job and I'm happy with it. I really don't want to have to find a new barn but I really think it's going to come down to that soon.
I'm still with my crappy retail mall job. Manager there is gone too. Also a case of did she quit or was she fired? Came back from vacation and she was gone (usually things don't happen when I go on vacation but after this I might never leave again). While her leaving has made things a lot easier on the rest of us, I still feel like I'm about to lose my mind. I'm supposed to be getting a promotion that will put me in charge of the stock room. It's a job I feel I can do and it will come with a raise so that's always nice. But people keep making a mess of the stock room and it's driving me nuts! I work at a shoes store and we keep all the shoes in the back so when someone wants to try one on you have to go back and find it for them. Obviously the shoes in the back are organized in a certain way, and at the end of your shift you are to put back the shoes you brought out to show people. Also when we get shipments of new shoes everyone pitches in with putting them away. It's really not that hard to figure out where things go and to put them back in the right place. Yet someone (maybe more than one person, I really don't know) in constantly putting things back in the wrong places. I've found entire sections of shoes where they don't belong. Honestly if you don't know how to put the shoes up right, don't do it! And if you are going to be lazy and not do it right one purpose, don't do it! I am tired of cleaning up other peoples messes, and it actually makes more work for me than if they had just not done anything at all.
For the most part, my jobs are my life right now. Not much else goes on for me outside of them. Nothing else quite so drama filled anyway (except for boy drama but I try not to talk about that; it never helps anyway). I've really just been feeling like I'm about to cry these last couple of days. I feel like there's just this huge pressure on me and every little thing is going to send me over the edge. I hate this part of summer; it's always been the worst for me. At this point I just want it to be over, even though I know that means I'll have the added pressure of classes. I hoping to be leasing my friend's horse soon, but that will be just another added pressure. I'm also hoping it will help some, to offer me an escape from all of this. I would love to be able to just go ride whenever I want. My mom doesn't want me to do it. She keeps trying to come up with different ways to talk me out of it. I'm really at a point where I can't take that. I need support, not someone telling me that what I want to do is a bad idea.
Anyways that's all the venting I can stand for now. I'm too tired to keep this up.