09-18-2010, 03:39 PM
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Ugh life is still not going well. I've got a cold, which really sucks because I don't have time to be sick. And I hate myself for saying that. My best friend will say that all the time and I want to smack her. I just think, what kind of life do you have if you can't afford to slow down and take it easy when you are sick? Well now I know what kind of life that is and it sucks. It's not even so much that I mind being super busy. I mind that I don't have a choice. I mind that if I don't work for a few days, I won't be able to afford things. What a craptacular life.
My birthday is coming up. I think I should just ask everyone for money. Which I don't want to do because getting money as a gift is boring. But money is the only thing I need right now. I want other things. But I'm trying to take care of what I need first. Then I can have what I want. From my parent, I think I will just ask for them to forgive whatever I owe them (or atleast some of it if they won't do all of it). That is if I get anything else after they get me the show clothes I need. From my sister though, I'm getting something I want. She said she'd take me for a new piercing (so long as there's not TOO much parental objection). So that I'm happy about. From the rest of my family, I'm thinking of just asking for money. They don't tend to do anything too exciting anyway. I'm just afraid I'm going to end up with $20 from everyone. Which isn't much help. But it would be $20 more than I had before so I can't really complain. My friend is getting me a fake leather jacket I want, and if not that then probably a pair of shoes that I want, so that will be nice.
I'm not getting to ride much which is a bummer. And I'm sick right now, so no riding. Last time I was sick and tried to ride, I felt like I'd been going for hours after 10 minutes. Not good, especially if your horse is a little bit of a handful, which Lucas can be. I'm going to go lunge him though, so he gets something. But I'm really just not finding the time to get out there like I thought I would. It really sucks because I don't think I could find it in me to stop leasing him, even if I'm not getting out there much. I guess I'm just going to have to try harder to get out there.