I had the potential to have a great weekend.
Saturday started out OK but went to crap after the facts I mentioned. Then Sunday I was feeling really down. Lovely man was working so I got all dressed up with the idea of us hanging out.. which didn't pan out.
Then he was texting me/FBing me a lot, but then things got weird and we stopped talking.
Then I woke up today at 10am after sleeping since 8pm my time last night. Just woke up not feeling very well.
Had a huge panic attack and ended up not going to this event I was planning on going to. Everything went wrong from car not having gas to people forgetting to pick me up, or the fact I LOST my glasses so now I can't drive :/ Then being upset and crying initially to having my mom yell at me and criticize me = not a happy camper today at all.
Then cue Lovely Man to be all weird again.
Can I just... be done with men?! PLEASE let them all leave me alone.... or at least stop being weird.
And I really can't wait till I move out. I just.. I just emailed my school and asked them about leaving their program because I am just so close to exploding with stress that I haven't been able to get ANYTHING done this term. All I had was to finish 2 certs and I failed my test by 1 question, which is still disappointing because I spent so many months studying and revising.. missing out on life and crying because I suck.
I rather deal with the consequences than put myself through that again.