Been awhile since I've updated!
Sky has lost some conditioning and a smidge of weight. I don't blame him with all of these transitions.. new barn, new grain (introduced slowly,) new herd, no shoes.
My friend kindly took some confo shots but I don't want to post them yet until he's had a chance to gain it all back.
He's adjusting to being barefoot, no soreness as of yet but he was pretty sluggish a few times this week.
About my riding... well
I kind of forgot about the excellent advice about putting more weight in the outside stirrup.. and found myself leaning again.
However, aside from that we worked on snappy transitions and I was trotting and cantering nice and relaxed without any issues. I did still have anxiety cantering to the left, like really bad anxiety where I imagined my horse was a racing car that was screeching around the Indy 500 and was about to crash into a brick wall (my imagination is scary, lol)
The downward transitions were really pathetic.. I could not stop flopping forward and pulling on her mouth :/ so I worked really hard on holding it together as she likes to transition without me cueing her. Still no excuse, but the last 2 transitions from canter to trot I kept my butt in the saddle and didn't haul on her at all :)
After that she started to really soften with me and I got a lovely trot and walk out of her :)
No riding this weekend, but will go next weekend.
I've really been struggling lately in my personal life.. school isn't going so well. I spent so much time studying and didn't do great on my exam :/ I actually missed 1 question from the cutoff score. Even if I got the cutoff score I'd still be disappointed in myself. I already am right now.. and with my school. It's just not working out for me anymore. They don't try to help, and so I just don't feel like trying either (kind of like my relationship that just ended.)
I do like someone but I'm only going to be in NZ for around 4 more months before I move back to be with Sky. Plus I'm sure I've already ruined things with him.. I've been so awkward and dark lately!
Work is dry.. I used to love working there but now I just tolerate it. I'm not motivated or happy. I come home exhausted mentally, emotionally, even physically. Also I'm extremely pale and weak from not getting enough sun.. I get home from work and it is already dark. I could walk around during my breaks but I can't because as soon as I even try to do anything, I'm pulled back and made to work. We're supposed to get 45 minutes for lunch. I spend maybe 20 minutes until something 'urgent' pops up that only I am around to handle.
I needed to vent, thanks to whoever is reading.
I hope at least one of my future jobs is outdoorsy as I feel that is a MUCH better fit for me.
So I'm trying Oysters for the first time in about 3 hours :) I'm so excited and nervous haha!! I've heard so many things about them.. positive and negative!
"Strength is the ability to use a muscle without tension"