In truth, I didn't know I'd lost it, until it came back.
After the arm-breaking wham-upon-the-ground I have of course not been able to ride, and so I have been doing some groundwork in-between taking pictures of horses in the pretty snow I haven't missed riding, and I thought that was because I knew that I couldn't ride, but I think that my mind and body just knew that I wasn't physically up to it.
But last week, I had an e-mail that my saddle for Riley is on it's way (it's still on it's way...), and I got a little bit excited. Then day before yesterday I went out to play with the boys and my mind suggested that I do some mounting preparation practise, specifically - practise standing still at the mounting block.
Riley, who can do it but can't be bothered, picked up the lesson very quickly and will stand as still as a mountain. U-kon who can't do it, as his head is too butterfly-young, well he also picked it up really quickly! I was super pleased and will be repeating as soon as this snowstorm stops. He's a butterfly-head, but he learns really quickly.
So now - yes - I am looking forward to getting back in the saddle. I will start on Riley who is a steady-eddie, and then if I am sure that I am physically up to it I will start on U-kon. Yes, I will have a friend there when I get on U-kon , I will listen to my commonsense for that one!