I'm not sure if this is actually going to be a "journal" or anything, more of just a temporary admitting of defeat. I may continue writing in here if I grow a backbone.
Anyway, I have a 7-year old Paint/QH mare named Abby. I have talked about her before in random other threads. I have only had her since September and she is the first horse I have owned. When I found her ad online, it didn't say much, so I emailed her owner and asked for a picture and some more information. I fell in love with her in the picture and even more so when I went to look at her. She is the definition of my perfect horse and she's gorgeous, which makes it even better.
Howeverrrrrr. She has learned lately that she is bigger than me and is learning to push my buttons...annnndd it's basically killing any confidence I had. I am a wrangler at a summer camp, so she's not the first horse I've ridden or anything, but the majority of those horses are more than deadbroke and I am comfortable riding the horses that are only ridden by wranglers. Although I don't like him just as a horse much, I am pretty comfortable riding the hottest horse there. Granted, he's a 25-year old Arabian/QH, if you aren't paying attention, he'll take off at a full gallop and he's the fastest horse in the herd by a lot.
While I was home for Christmas, Abby did God only knows what to her back right leg. She wouldn't put weight on it when I discovered it. It looked a lot like a horse at camp that kicked at another horse and got her leg caught in the gate, but the vet said it looked like rope burn, then another lady at the barn said she probably got kicked. I dunno. She's a horse. The ways they manage to hurt themselves is a wonder. Anyhoooo, she wouldn't let me come near it and would attempt cowkicking if I did.
The vet came out..on Tuesday and tranquilized her to look at it and Abby tried cowkicking her even under the influence of a fairly strong tranq. After she figured out it wouldn't hurt, she was fine. The vet wants me to spray some antibiotic spray on it if I can. She said wrapping it would have been best, but there are no open stalls inside and the snow would get it wet..and I would have to drug her up every time I needed to change the wrap. So that's out.
I was out there today to try the spray and that was basically a fail. Another lady there suggested getting the BO (a guy) to twitch her tomorrow morning while I try spraying her leg again and she should calm down. She's learned how to push my buttons.
Basically..the point of this is that I need to grow a backbone and Abby needs her ass handed to her (and stop her herdboundness that she has developed) and she'll be fine.
I just needed to rant and admit that I have lost a great deal of confidence in myself.
Sorry this is so long. I am just typing, so I doubt it makes sense. Suggestions and the like are welcome.