All I can say, Endiku, is WOW!! I just found this journal, but have been following Kenzi's trials and tribulations. My initial reaction is wishing I could reach out and give you the biggest, longest hug!!! You are simply amazing.
You are so incredibly generous trying to do so many good things for other people. But as you have found, it is so easy to become overburdened with obligations. At some point, no matter how good your intentions, you just can't do it all. There are only so many hours in the day.
The stress is definitely taking its toll on your young, now fragile body and doing a number on your mental health as well. I am so glad you have found someone who you can vent with. We all need that on a regular basis! I'm also relieved to see that you have found a way to decrease a little bit of your obligations. I am sure that once people realize how much you have taken on, they will be nothing short of 100% amazed and understanding your need to cut back.
That chemistry assignment boggles my mind! Looks very much like college level to be sure. I commend you for taking on such a difficult subject, especially taking into consideration the added challenges you face in trying to learn it. I hope there is some way you can access some free tutoring services, especially for the math. Between math and chemistry, I would be freaking out!
As for the Occupational Therapy, it's a wonderful profession! Are there any technical schools close to you? Sometimes they have great OT programs. I hope you get that full-ride scholarship in KY. That would be awesome.
Please continue to do only what you can handle. Many of us have that "Can't Say No" disease so don't feel guilty one bit when you have to say NO to someone no matter how good a cause it might be. Hang in there, girl. You're doing AWESOME!!! Try not to get too discouraged and by all means, do NOT come down on yourself. It certainly is not warranted and it will only make you feel worse.
Just say to yourself - or better yet, out loud, "I AM WOMAN! HEAR ME ROAR!!!!! As a woman, you need to be your own best friend and advocate.
Hold your Head UP HIGH and exude confidence even if you don't feel it inside. If you THINK it, it will happen. Truly, it will.
Have a GREAT DAY today and keep up the good work. I'm sending all positive thoughts your way! Also, please feel free to PM me any time you want to vent. My shoulder is always "open".