I've been going through a lot family wise and horse wise and I thought that if I were to update people on my lessons and my search for a horse I might gain some advice and support.
If anyone's interested, that is. I'll start, I suppose, with a little bit of an introduction.
I'm a sixteen-year-old girl that lives in southeast Texas. I have varying hobbies, of course, as any. I have three snakes, a dog, a cat, and a beta. I love the water, fishing, music, as I play bassoon. I've always loved horses. Like any girl, of course. I had all the Polly Pocket and Barbie horse collections, and I adored it. Things began to become a reality last spring when we went to my friend's ranch in Mississippi.
There, I rode with them and really got in touch with horses. After a bit of begging and a search, my father agreed to let me take lessons. I started this January. My lesson teacher is a very good friend and person, and I love her. She's sensitive to the physical disability--an ailment known as Charcot-Marie-Tooth, or CMT, a degenerative neuromuscular distorder--I have and is willing to help me, emotionally and financially.
Last September I learned of my mother's affair. She has since moved out and not divorced, but made several terrible decisions. I try to love her, but when she does things like have her overweight boyfriend buy her a $700 dollar dog yet not pay her side of the bills, I am pulled a little further away from her. She has said some really evil things, and in more than one way my trainer has somewhat replaced her as a maternal figure in my life.
I'm searching for a horse now. I just switched to English, because that is my goal, despite the fact that everyone's told me with my disability it is not possible at all. I can't run, or do much things that people should be able to do to be "healthy", but on a horse I feel just as equal as any other. It is inspiring me to lose weight (a med caused me to gain about 30 pounds, when I was already about 20 over my goal) and keep active, and really tune in with the environment, because before I wasn't too interested in anything past a laptop and Star Trek on TV.
I'm passing in between different ways to get money. I'm doing babysitting now. I started making flipflops for sale with little success, but now I want to make natural soap with fragrances and many sorts of molds. Anything for money. Money, money money. It's not really gluttony or selfishness, arrogance. I just want to do anthing, anything possible to get myself a horse and to be able to take care of it to the best of my ability. I feel I can do so much more riding more than 2x a week. My mom with the same disability as I is now on medical disabilty, so she isn't working, so she can bring me anywhere (because I don't have my license yet)..
Sorry this is a bit of a novel. I just...I'm looking for some friends, and maybe someone to take interest and support me. I'll probably post some more after my lesson this evening.