Getting back on after bad accident

I had a bad day today. The pain was pretty intense, so I decided to wait.
Just to let you know what happened when we had our accident...
We went on our first ride around the neighborhood with my husband and his mare. It went really well. She was kinda spooky and nervous, but so was I. A big truck came down the road WAY too fast. I saw it coming and panicked. I'm pretty sure I spured her, so she spun (I was turning her so she could see the truck coming) and I fell off. She shied away from my when I fell and her back foot was on my ankle. I did everything the trainer who had trained her told me not to do. I got too confident....I knew better!
Last night the computer erased everything, so I got frusterated and shortened everything.

And thanks all of you for your help and advice. Berry, thanks a million!!!! I took every word to heart!

So yesterday evening we tacked up Dandy, my husband's mare. I got on her (mounting hurts so bad!) and just started crying. I wasn't scared it was just such a mix of emotions that I was overwhelmed. For months I wasn't sure if I'd even be able to get back on a horse and then to do it was very surreal.
I was even brave enough to ride around by myself after my husband lead us around. I can't put my foot in the stirrup because it's too weak and it hurts, but that just gave me more incentive to do my physical therapy and get my ankle back to where I can ride.
I still have this horrible fear of something I can't control happening and the horse reacting. I am very aware all the time that there is a 1200 lbs animal underneath of me and if that horse decides I need off, I'm coming off whether I like it or not...and it's going to hurt when I do.

Congrats on getting back on! You look great on her!

Well, my husband was out ridding and I was itching to get on, so I did...and I rode! All by myself for the first time. She was wonderful and I had a blast! No fear at all. My heart never skipped a beat and I felt relaxed and happy. There is nothing like that feeling of having that saddle and horse underneath of me. To have a 1200lbs animal so in tune with me that she does what I'm thinking before I tell her. To have her trust and understanding so much that I can tell her how I feel and she gives me all she's got and takes such care so she won't scare me.
In 2 weeks Gracie comes home from training. I am so nervous about ridding her. I plan on starting slow and ridding in the arena for a long time before I do anything "crazy". I think I'm more scared of my reaction then I am of actually getting on her.
I'm also very frusterated about finding ridding lessons with a reputable trainer. There are so many people, mostly women, that think they are trainers and can charge for lessons just because they own a horse. I'm starting to think it would just be safer to ride in the arena all the time and just get ridding time under my belt. I can't afford to have someone mess this up anymore then I already have.

Well....bad news I went to the doctor yesterday because my foot was hurting in a new spot. I have a stress fracture on my foot about halfway between my angle and my foot. No ridding for a few weeks

Gracie is home! Now I'm scared. Anyone have any experience getting back on a horse after a bad accident? I just don't know if I can get back on her. She's sweet and gentle and wonderful, but she is a little bit of a spaz sometimes. I'm scared I'll tense and get scared on her back and get in another accident.
Please...someone help We will have to sell her if I can't get on her. I've put too much money into her to have her just sitting in the pasture.

Good for you. Take it at your own pace. There's no hurry.

I got on her!!!! Last night I rode her for about 20 minutes and today I rode her for about an hour and she was wonderful! She is so sweet and quite..hard to believe this is the horse that broke my ankle. Our trainer is a genious! He has made her into a horse I can ride confidently.
That first moment was amazing! There was never any fear and never any question. I knew I was doing the right thing and I knew this is where I belonged and I think she did too. I am growing leaps and bounds when it comes to ridding. Our trainer has been sweet enough to help me out so I can get back on her and not get hurt again. I am so excited that our journey together has begun. It'll be awhile before we can go out together, but it's a start and what a great one!

Congrats! Does she ever have beautiful dapples!

Thanks NorthernMama. I think she's got a little bit of chameleon in her. When I bought her she was almost white, this summer she was dark dark gold and now she's this cute little dappled pony. I love it!!!!! She is such a perfect horse (except the stepping on my foot part, of course, but I take full blame for that) and I love her so much!