Well here I am at Tuesday and playing catchup, I am glad to say that Sundays lesson was alot more positive.....having helped John and Prue with picking up this unhandled mare on Saturday which incidently turned out to be a Kaimanawa from the previous years muster just made me remember that the fighters come from fighting hands and Rose has no reason to be that way inclined so I decided that this lack of confidence devil on my shoulder can be put in a hole and I walked into the yard Sunday on a mission and really got in Roses face and she was as uncomfortable as ever constantly evading by turning her head this way and that and not wanting to look at me which is a little difficult when I have a stick either side of her face steering back to me. It ended a very positive lesson and I felt on top of the world.
So then came Monday and Prue came in the morning to work with Buttons and as I said before everything is dropped when they are around. I have found some really lovely and GOOD freinds in Prue and John and I find there willingness to be honest just gives me such strength and I feel like I can conquer the world.
So as the lesson went on I realised that Rose was putting up more of an evasion argument than the day before and I could feel mentally that I was losing so I had to make good timing to finish that part in the split second that she did look at me which was proving to be hard but I did catch that second and then I had a rest.
The second time I went back to her, I went to her shoulder and very quickly I was touching her shoulder. Yes! Ended on a positive note.
Prue worked with Buttons and I kicked myself for not having my camera because Buttons smelt and perhaps nuzzled her face and then if that wasn't enough Buttons stretched forward and smelt Prues hair and looked over her shoulder at me. I made a mental note to have camera ready Tuesday.
Later on in the day I went for a stroll in the girls paddock and stopped half way down the length of it and who should be walking straight towards me at a decent walking pace only to stop directly facing me....Rose so I turned away and played follow the leader and she followed me all over the paddock..Buttons and Breakout followed respectfully behind but Rose wanted to be right up there with me. I ended that with feeding them and went about my other jobs feeling like I am finally winning.
Well about an hour later I couldn't help but go back and before I could get in the yard Rose had walked in the open gate to greet me and it didn't bother her that I had the stick with me and she had all the choices to turn around and bolt back out the gate but no she wanted to see what I was up to, so immediately I put the stick on her wither and moved up over her head around her nose and under her jowles and onto the underside of her neck and stroked and then walked straight into her shoulder and reached out and stroked her forever...................what a feeling...I now feel like truly she is not scared of me and nor I of her.
Rose is joining me up with her now.....when I walk into that yard and she looks me over, I feel like she knows everything there is to know about me and the last couple of days have almost felt like a trade off....as I feel like she is saying to me to ditch those insecurities and worries before you come to me and when you do...we will partners forever.