Katesrider011's journal. *****Rant*****

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Just a tip: I used to be an extreme cutter years ago, and I found two ways that helped wean me off of it. One is what I like to call "Angry Paper." What you do is write the word "angry" on a piece of paper, and then go crazy on it with a pen/pencil/marker until you can't see the word angry anymore. I know it sounds goofy, but it really helps. And also, wear a rubber band around your wrist. If you feel the urge to cut or anything of the sort, snap the rubber band on your wrist. It gives just a touch of "ouch" for that pain high/release, but doesn't do as much damage as cutting itself would.

Keep your chin up, Cory.
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Thanks, Sunny

Okay, so I'm going on a trail ride today with my trainer, and friend. I think we are going to go to the Chickasaw Indian village, but I'm not quite sure. Maybe the Indian Spirits won't get us :P On the serious note though, it does have ghosts on the land. I have a huge fascination with ghosts if yall haven't noticed before.

I got a job this summer with the furniture manufacturing company my dad works at. The pay is 230 a week. I can't wait, I will finally be able to pay for my own things, and I want to get Kate a different bit, cause I really dislike this Tom Thumb I'm using on her, I would have gotten her a different one already, but mom won't give me money to get another one, so I'll have to stick with it till I get the job. And I'll be getting a new phone. IPhone more than likely, or maybe the samsung Captivate. I'm not sure yet. Anywho, I'm real excited about this job, although I won't have much of a summer, but It'll be worth it once I get done with it when summer is over.

Okay so I'm going to the barn this afternoon to help teach the younger group. It's for fun, and also for a semester long project I'm doing, and I want to try to pass it. I can say I've been much happier lately and maybe it'll stay this way no matter what goes wrong...... I hope.

Oh and I'm ready to get my truck back! I'm sorry for wrecking you truckie! D:

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Are you sure your name isnt Danielle, and you are secretly a girl? You remind me A LOT of myself.

Nah I'm not a girl. Although I've been told I act like one. Or they think I'm gay. Whichever, it doesn't matter to me anymore. :P

Lol, good for you. They are all most likely jealous at the fact that you have a wonderful horse and they don't :)

Yep! Haha!

It's kinda late. But I'm in my room working on math homework. I'm barely passing the class anyway, so the homework is vital right now. We're on some easy subjects right now.... I guess. It always seems I freeze up on tests and never know how to do them anyway... It's like a vacuum sucked all the knowledge out of my brain. I look around me seeing all these kids doing well in school. And I can't help but think they just don't know how lucky they are. Sometimes I just don't know how I'm going to get through this.

I'm sick of worrying about what's going to happen with my life. The thought that I might not graduate is killing me. I can get my ged, but after that I don't know where I'm going to go. I guess a community college of some sort. I guess I need to start applying for community colleges, and maybe one'll accept me. I just want a decent job that will pay for horses, and I don't care if I have to live in a small trailer to be able to afford them. Horses are about the only thing that make me happy anymore, and friends, but considering we are going to be parting ways once we are out on our own, I won't be able to see them a lot. *Sigh* And that's what happens when I stay up past my normal bed time. I think about life. Goodnight.