1. It's weird, maybe you guys experience this too, but, the more I've been outside, the less "human" issues seem to bother me. Like Gentleman Friend = not even worried about it. I'm happy that we're friends, of course, but I'm just kind of "meh" about the whole thing.
It's like being inside and around so many people for so long has freakin' messed with my brainnnnnnn. And now that I'm spending more time outside, "I'm" coming back to life....
Is that weird? I think so.
But whatever. I'm ok with it, who wants to spend a summer pining after some guy who may or may not like me "the way I want him to right now"? Notttttt me.
So that's my new outlook. I'll of course let you know if anything happens but that chapter is stopping for now.
You and me both. Being inside, especially on the computer, drives me crazy in a negative way. I get so caught up on feeling insecure if I don't hear from someone for a long time, or find myself obsessing over nothing.
I'm really really glad his "name" is Clark Kent. Other names included "Cool Kid", "Molasses" (he moved and talked like he was stuck in molasses...but he was cool), "Sweat Stain", and "Shearing." Soooo Clark Kent was basically the most most flattering.
Also, I jut realized that most of these names sound REALLY mean without context. Each name is truly not making fun of the person it's attached to. They just describe defining characteristics of the person they "belong" to. And we did work hard to keep the names out of the hands of others. Really we did.
Believe me, I would never "name" people in a mean way. And honestly, the people we liked were the ones that got names.
Girl, you live in some kind of wonderland. Both in real life, and in your head. From what I can see of it, it's a pretty nice place. Makes me smile to see and read about it.
But, yes, I wonder about GF. Something's just not clicking. From out here, I have to question how much time you should be having any kind of expectation, or even be wondering about him. Someone will one day fall head over heels for your red hair, and your love of animals, and there'll be no question about how they feel.
Haha I'm glad, Caroline! I like my wonderland too. Sometimes people tease me about it and it's often a little jarring when my world collides with the real one - for instance, when I realize that someone said something with the intention of being hurtful....but usually it's pretty nice. Sometimes I do worry that it's my way of "evading" the real world...but you know. Haha
On the animal front, everyone is doing SUPER well!!
Lacey blew an abscess on one of her back feet last Saturday and she was ouchie for a few days. It looks like she's nearly fully healed now though since she's back to romping around!
Atticus had his second ponying lesson on Friday and he did even better than he did the first time. He's still stressed about it but he wasn't dragging so hard. Go him!!
Hazel's also doing great. Just being her sweet sweet self. She is the nicest, most precious, creature. I just ADORE her so much. I love that her personality is basically exactly what her looks say she should be like - a giant snuggly teddy bear.
And it's so funny, initially she was pretty nervous and standoff-ish so I thought that was just who she was going to be. But now, as we near our "1 year anniversary" (in September), I can't hardly fathom her actually being super standoff-ish. I mean, she's never "in your face" or annoyingly underfoot, but she's always up for some loving and, no matter what you need to do to her, if you give her a chest scratch post-trauma, she's allll good.
I just love her. :)
On the me-front, I had my first final today and my last one (only other one) is on Wednesday morning. SO CLOSE TO SUMMER.
And I planted my garden today, finalllllly. AND I baked my first gluten-free cake EVER! And it actually came out super well. I was so excited. It was Chocolate Sundae Pudding Cake = one of my favorites. So much chocolate!!
Look at who's not unbelievably obese!! Yay for wearing a grazing muzzle for 12 hours everyday and having it actually work!
"Mr. Tail! You look tasty!!"
My favorite deer, "Baby Girl."
Daisy!! I'm pretty sure daisies are one of the most optimistic flowers ever...besides the fact that they smell like dog poop.
I hope to one day get married in a pasture full of daisies with Lacey by my side...and my husband on the other.
This little hummingbird! He is the sassiest little man. He was scolding me SO harshly while I photographed him! Haha
Which one is Atticus and which one is a deer??! Silly boy!
Then, the building by the MAX stop I frequent. This is my favorite building, architecturally, downtown....mostly because I love the color combo. Hahaha
Males usually have a little feather that kind of sticks out like "horn", kind of along the bottom of their neck, and if the light strikes their chest/neck right, it will show you their brilliant jewel red Gorgot (the red throat)
But, the females can be just as "scolding". We have lots of them that visit our deck.
Male. See the feathers that are kind of like "horns"?
Wooooohoooooo! School is DONE for the year. SUMMER IS HERE!!!!!
Also, fun fact, I saw Booth's vet (the pretty one!!) while I was waiting for my MAX to leave this morning. He was getting off the train that had just pulled into the station (I get on the MAX at the end of the line). He saw me through the window and popped his head into my train to say hi. It was sweet.
I guess he lives in Portland and generally takes the MAX to get to the clinic since it's maybe a 10 minute walk from that stop. Eco-friendly AND cute? Waaaaaaaaat?
Anyway! Everybody's doing great.
Goals for the summer:
1. Draw something, anything, everyday. I bought a mini sketchbook that should be here on Friday. I figure that a fresh new notebook is an excellent motivator!
2. Work on writing my "MAX/Portland book" somehow. I need to look through my Facebook and find, then copy down, allll my statuses about the MAX. It shouldn't be too hard, just time intensive. I'm going to look into publishing it though Amazon which is apparently a reasonable option for getting it out there. But I don't know any details yet.
I have more "would like to do" stuff but these two are my "MUST DO"'s. Keep me honest, ok, guys?
Maybe I'll make a tumblr or something for my art. I feel like I should post that everyday, to keep me honest, but I dunno how or where. A blog, of course!!
Anyway, that's really all for today. I hope you guys are doing fantastically!!
[And Caroline, I LOVED that hummingbird video! TOOOOO cute. It made me so happy!]
On Thursday Lacey and I went for a ride in the forest!
I've decided that walking rides in the forest will probably do her more good than just banishing her to her pasture for forever, due to this on again-off again lameness issue. I figure that if she can just walk and we reserve trotting/cantering for the lungeline (as needed), in her pasture, we're hopefully good.
I did let her throw in a nice canter at the very end of our ride, going up the last hill, but we had walked for 45 minutes and the old girl does love to run! So I had to give her a little of her favorite.
I was really impressed with the goats too! The last 2 times I've taken Lacey out, Atti basically loses his fruitloops and well, FREAKS OUT. The first time he went galloping through the llama's pasture repeatedly, bawling his head off, for probably 15 minutes, but had settled down by the time we got back. The time after that, he lost it for maybe 5 minutes, then settled down. THIS time, he bawwed as we left and as we walked down the road, but he didn't go into the llama's pasture and he was already laying down, by the gate, by the time we got down to the trail (the pasture to the trail is sort of a "U" shape, so I can see the pasture's gate from the trail head). Yay yay yay!!
Anyhoo, Lacey and I had a really nice time. She was super good and seemed to really enjoy being out. :)
And on Thursday I was trying to just use B+W, just to see what'll happen. And this is what happened. Haha
The leaves were making really neat patterns!
Lacey is cute!!
Then, the other day I saw TWO redtail hawks!!
And yesterday's drawing (I am apparently in a massive "poke war" on Facebook with my friend Tara.....haha).
Also, just because someone might know, do any of you guys know what kind of plant this is? It's some kind of vine/tree thing....?