Haven't updated in a while! No one panic, I'm still alive...or as alive as can be expected.
Absolutely nothing exciting has happened. Nothing really disappointing either, but nothing exciting.
For starters, work last week was all "ehhh". Now that we're on "Winter Schedule" there's a whole lot less time for working with/'training' Fabs=disappointment. We've been using him in sessions quite a bit though and he's been doing really well.
The other horses are kinda making me want to slap myself though. Actually, just mostly Skippy. He doesn't respect me AT ALL when there's a kid on his back. He'll be great before the addition of a kid but as soon as a kid gets on his back everything goes to pieces. He's even good when Work Creep/a volunteer is on his back and I try to lead them around...just not when a kid is on his back.
Basically he "forgets" how to stop and drags me for a few steps every time I have to halt him. I've been trying to work on it a bit with the more capable riders where I have him back up a few steps every time we stop...but he's also really heavy to back up. He only really seems to understand the Parelli version of back up [that lead rope wiggling yadda] so he's all "nose pressure=back up? Say whhaaaaat?"
Correction: don't want to slap myself, want to slap SKIPPY!!
But we're working on it. We'll get there...I hope!
It seemed as though we were heading somewhere...and then suddenly he's gone all standoffish again.
He got my letter on Thursday and it was "the best ever :):)".
I'm not sure if he wrote back - he didn't say he did and I don't want to ask if he was going to, for fear of making him feel like he "should" write back. We'll see, I guess!
Anyway, I told him some story around 5:30pm...got no response. He must have remembered he hadn't texted me back when he woke up the next morning at 5:30A-freaking-M, thought he should text me back, and texted me back, ON MY BIRTHDAY, to say "haha :)". At 5:30AM. Yeah. Greattttt start to my birthday. [once my phone goes off in the morning, there's no hope for me to go back to sleep] And he didn't even say happy birthday in that text. Hmph.
Then, later, he wrote on my FB wall for my birthday and said "Have a marvelous birthday, Friend :):)"
1. Is my name now "Friend"? Why is that capitalized?? haha
2. Are smileys punctuation now? What do allll these double and triple smileys MEAN?
[in interesting news, both his best friends wrote on my FB wall for my birthday too - interesting mostly because I NEVER tell friends of friends "happy birthday"...but we are talking about literally the nicest people in the world so.... in any case, I felt like "one of the team"! haha]
And then, to top it all off, last night he told me he'd come see me for a second before church, like he always does...then never showed up. It turned out that some kid had gotten injured enough to need stitches and things had just gone insane with the kids [and since he's the one 'in charge'...] but him just not showing up was a bit hurtful. It would have been better if he had just shot me a text saying "not gonna make it" and then explained later, or whatever.
Anyway, he texted me after church and was really apologetic but you know.
I did tell him that it had hurt my feelings but that I understood that he was doing his job and he was all "I didn't mean to hurt you at all" along with some other stuff, and apologized again, so I basically told him that our friendship is important to me and that while I might get hurt, we're not going to stop being friends because I get mad or something...and he texted me back "thanks"......
At least I was honest? Seriously, who says just "thanks" to something like that. Whatever.
I'm sure I'm taking it a bit more seriously than he means it, but that's a just frustrating response!
Maybe he's as confused as I am. That's the only way I can logically explain this whole *waves hands around* thing.
The other explanation would be that he knows I like him and he doesn't feel the same way. If that were the case though, I don't think we'd be having Sundays and I don't think he'd be texting me ever and he certainly wouldn't have sent me that card. I've seen him around girls that he knows like him and who he doesn't feel the same way for and he's prettttty much the king of avoidance. I have literally seen him RUN from a girl, to get away before she saw him.
Who knows WHAT is happening. I'm going to try to leave it alone for a couple of days, give him some space, see what happens. Introverts need space and he's super introverted.
I forget that while I like contacting people, I don't necessarily like them contacting me 'constantly' AND I know that Gman and I are very similar on this front [this is one area where I'm not sure we could "work"...I mean, we DO understand each other's need for space..but are we compatible "need-for-companionship"-wise??].
I've been doing an awful lot of Gman contacting lately...survey says: stop for a few days.
And for your patience, here are some pictures. :)
Fabs from last week!
An ADORABLE baby Pygmy Goat at the feedstore.
"But they NEEDED my help clearing these blackberry branches!"
I hope you guys have all been super well!!!