Hmmm, good question, Caroline!
Huh. I really don't have a good response to that. I mean, personality-wise, I'm one of those kinds of people that prefers to have 1 or 2 close friends, plus a large group of "friend-friends" which probably plays into it. But I don't know.
I guess, without sounding cold, I don't mind if my friend-friends don't "see" me for who I really am..I mean, they have their own close friends to worry about and that's totally fine!
Basically, I guess, the real issue with Gman and I is that I don't know where I stand with him. I'm treating him like a close friend of mine and he...based on miscellaneous information, seems to treat me like a close friend of his. BUT he's a person with a large group of "close friends" which is, therefore, hard for me to wrap my brain around since I can't even fathom having any kind of an 'equal' level of caring for more than 2 people..someone is always going to be "winning" for my affection. So, I guess, being "seen" goes back to "winning" and -on some level- makes me feel like I was number one for two seconds. Huh. Absolutely never thought about that.
You gave me a brain-twister!!
On the life front, I may be dying of exhaustion.
This week is "Dead Week" [week before Finals Week] for me at school and OH MY GOSH.
I have one 6pg paper due on Friday and a 10pg paper due at the same time. Have I started either? Oh no, I've been practicing ASL final expressives, writing other papers, [both due today] and generally trying to stay afloat.
Tomorrow is going to be beautiful. Ha. Try "the epitome of madness"!!
But I'm hopeful. Somehow I'll do it, I have to. Once they're done, it'll be pretty much smooth sailing. I'll have 2 more papers to write before next Wednesday but they're both simpler and more straightforward. I also have tests on Tuesday morning and Wednesday, but again, simpler+easier.
Trrrrrying to stay optimistic!!
On the bright side, today I had the last classes of my Russian/Chinese Revolutions class, my Historical Thinking/Philosophy class, AND my Sign Language class. [those first two are the Friday's papers] So that's a plus for sure!
Anyway, I have a mess of photos from yesterday to share and a headshot of Mr. Atti from last week that I think I forgot to share!
Miss Lace. <3
Pony refuses to make nice faces for the camera. She was quite indignant last night!