1. Lacey's eyes are doing SO much better!!!
I'm so happy!!!
She was actually able to have a relatively pain-free 29th birthday yesterday too which was fabulous!!
No ulcer, the next day that eye looked completely normal. Not sure what was up with it that particular evening but I'm glad it wasn't anything serious!!
2. Atti is hilarious. He's all "get me out of this retirement home! These old ladies don't understand how stinking AWESOME I am!!!!"
3. I'm kind of freaking out a little about this whole thing with "New Guy"...and clearly overthinking so I'm going to write it all here and clear my head [and, of course, your opinions are always welcome].
We didn't have church last week due to the snow+ice [Portland actually put out a city-wide advisory requesting that everyone stay indoors if at all possible]. So the last time we conversed was two weeks ago, on SuperBowl Sunday, when we sat together and all that.
This week: he showed up 20 minutes earlier than he ever does, immediately came over to me and started chatting. We talked for 10 minutes or so, then we had to go to a little short 3 minute meeting. THEN, we had 15, or so, minutes before our "real" meeting...and he/we spent the whole time talking.
Actually though, talking to him is more like answering questions, receiving "oh" or "awesome", etc,-type answers, then answering more questions. It's kinda frustrating but I'm hoping that maybe that'll tone down once we're friends-friends.
THEN we had our meeting-meeting, and it was time to go host. It took a bit for people to show up in our sections...anyone want to guess WHO walked over to my section to talk while we waited? ....yeah.
Then people showed up and we actually had to "work." haha
THEN, once the teaching was about to start, I went to sit down...guess who just naturally came with me? He must have realized that he really hadn't asked if he could sit with me because, as he was about to sit down, he asked if he could sit there.
And we sat together again. This time he was wayyyyy more comfortable than last time. However, as our luck would have it, the teaching was on "Godly Sexual Identity". Talk about THE MOST awkward sermon to sit through, sitting in a packed pew next to a guy you kinda like but don't really know. It was hilariously horribly awkward. MY LIFE.
All evening he was asking me all about the classes I'm taking, what I'm doing this week, Lacey [someone was looking at my Facebook?? Haha], etc.
I'm so confused. I'm just so thrown for a loop by all this attention!
The worst part, I think, is that I truly do not want to lead him on in any way...but I have no idea what MY feelings are, really. I'm enjoying the attention, but do I like him...or the idea that I could be "winning" someone's affection?
Then, on top of that, weird stuff: a random girl sent me a friend request on Facebook.
We had two friends in common - New Guy and another lady from church. This girl looked familiar-ish and I figured that maybe I knew her from church since we had mutual church friends. So I gave her the benefit of the doubt, and accepted her request.
2 hours later, she had deleted ME as her friend.
This whole thing. I don't even.
Gah. This is all so out of character and new for me. Before Gman came into my life, I had had more guy friends than girl friends...but the girl friends were the close friends and no guys were ever interested in being "real" friends.
Then Gman came along and we became instant "real-real" friends. Realer than a lot of my girl friends and I. No questions asked, insta-mutual-soul connection.
Still no interest from guys other than Gman, but I was ok with that because Gman seemed like a real option [ha].
THEN, the poo hit the fan with Gman, discovered that he was never going to be an option, stayed super close friends but in a different way, and within 2 weeks, BOOM, there's New Guy.
I'm reallllly not that girl who all the guys like. I'm like one of those girls who gets described as "has a great personality" or "is THE FUNNIEST"...and if someone is going to describe my physical attributes, "cute" is always the term. I'm certainly ok with being the "funny girl." Making peope laugh is one of my most favorite things in life. It's just this is so...different from everything I've ever known.
I mean, I like this, I guess...but I just don't know what to do with it. And I wish I knew how I felt, for real.
I guess on the plus side, the insecure nerdy part of me can be relatively sure that New Guy isn't just messing with me because [no offense to him] he's not THAT good looking. He's not ugly at alllll, but not like intimidatingly good looking.
Anyway, that's my big novel of the day. But I do feel a whole lot better after getting that all out!! Thanks for listening.