I'm so glad, jcraig!
That's my favorite part too. He is such a ham!!
So today was a stinky day. It's just midterms this week/next week and it's all kicking my patoooooootie.
But it's ok, can't have good weeks without bad weeks.
A lot of it is that I feel like I'm doing so badly in all my classes, which -honestly- is actually not the case. I'm just trying
in all my classes for the first time in a while and, since I actually CARE, I'm pretty sure I'm just being overly hard on myself.
I know I have at least a b, maybe even an A, in ASL. An A in my Rainforests class, an A or B in my Reading Colloquium, and a B in that class I'm taking for the 3rd time. Those are all REALLY good grades for me, especially since those are my grades on my own merit. To be honest, sometimes I can tend to take the easy route and, without really meaning to, befriend "the smart kid" in class, then ride their coattails to a good grade. However, I'm totally not doing that now...and it's kinda showing in how stressed I am.
In GOOD news, I learned today that I LITERALLY have FOUR classes left until I can graduate!! I was sure I had more or something but NOPE. Only 4. So I'll be able to easily get them done next term and bam, lookin' at a girl with her BA.
Also, in an attempt to cheer myself up, I will now tell you guys a story from the weekend filled with awkwardness and hilarity and, since I am telling this story, overthinking.
Feel free to ignore.
I went to church - church does not stop for Superbowl.
First "important" pre-story details: remember "New Guy" - that guy who invited me to the zoo with him? But who I didn't go with because I didn't really know him and the idea of going somewhere, however innocuous, with a "stranger" made me uncomfortable?
That kid. He's been working hard to make us be friends. :) I haven't figured out exactly how I feel yet..I like the attention and he makes me laugh and I feel comfortable with him, but he's obviously nervous around me and kind of "acting". We're both hosts at church and his section is right next to mine, so I KNOW how he acts when he's comfortable and that's not how he acts when we're interacting.
Anyway, he's working hard to make us be friends. So we're being friends.
First, I was talking to Gman and NG was there, like 15 feet away. He was obviously dying to come over -kept trying to make eye contact with me, was figeting around in circles in our direction, doing the whole "I feel uncomfortable but I realllly want to check out this situation"-dance [one that I myself have perfected]- but he never did. I would have really liked to introduce him to Gman, but at the same time not. Gman is not any kind of covert so you know he'd say something like "IS THIS ZOO-GUY?????!" and that would so not help.
Gman'll meet him if he becomes important enough. :)
And oh man. Guys. The most adorable thing: sometimes, if New Guy sees that he's doing something that makes me laugh [he's a bumble-y human, so that sort of thing happens alll the time and it kills me because I would do the same things and it would end just as badly for me], he'll get himself into more of a mess, then catch my eye, and we'll have a little laugh together...even if we're far apart.
Anyway, on Sunday, since it was the Superbowl, NO ONE was at church.
And New Guy and I, since our sections are right next to each other AND EMPTY AS ALL GET OUT, ended up spending pretty much the whole time we were supposed to be "working" just hanging out and chatting. This was the first time we've ever talked more than a few seconds. Which is good - for a while he could barely make one word without running away, then we got into "awkward paragraphs"-range, and now we're actually talking.
We were talking. And, this kid is the funniest - he'll just out of the blue ask a completely random+unexpected question, out of no where he was all "Are you still in school?"
I was like "....yes? At PSU." "REALLY? I go there too, but I'm post-Bac..how long do you have left?" "This term and next term...I think?" "REALLLY?? But that means you're like...23? I thought you were 20 or something. That's cool, I'm 24. 23 is better than 20." "Why on earth would think I was 20??" ".....I don't know??"
That guy makes me laugh SO MUCH. He is so awkward in an great way. It is my favorite.
Then, after hosting-time was over, I said something about how "oh, now I'm going to go sit alone..." [didn't really want to "invite" him since sitting with someone in church is kinda....intimate? I don't know how to explain it but it's kinda personal, especially if it's just 2 people together].
Anyway, without any second of hesitation, he immediately said "I'LL SIT WITH YOU!!!" all excitedly.
So that was cool. I liked sitting with him.
Of course, as my/our luck would have it, the sermon was on marriage. Specifically the whys and wherefores of marriage.
Talk about the second to most awkward sermon [first being anything to do with sex] to be sitting alone with someone you kinda like, who you've never sat with before!!
I texted Gman and told him about how awkward the sermon was but that we sat together [he's super all about this kid. I told him about the zoo thing and he about lost it, he was so excited. Then this]. His response: "Hahahaha That is AWESOME!!! That would happen to you and I love it!"
In any case, maybe that [sitting together in relative silence for a while, without any pressure to talk or anything] was just what New Guy needed. He seemed a lot more relaxed after the service.
His words upon getting up, prior to walking out together: "Sitting together was great!"
Me: "I agree."
Him: "We should sit together again, for sure!!!"
[see, I'm playing it cool with this one - seeming all reserved. HA. But I figure that the best way to make a possibly nervous/shy person comfy is to not overwhelm them with perkiness]
Then we walked out together. :)
Sunday is definitely my favorite day of the week.
I hope you all are doing super!